Wednesday, February 11, 2009

School term is ending

I'm feeling a little forlorn lately.

The school term is ending, another "year" will be gone, soon.

Whatever I felt and said/complained about in the beginning will soon past. Yes, I know that I'm not happy when school first started, but, now that everything is ending, I'm feeling quite reluctant.

I felt guilty for thinking this way and that. But, I realised, my class is as good as it could get.

Every time, when a school year ended, I would start to have these feelings and thoughts. Would it be better if I had done this?

I may not like it at first, however, it has started to grow on me, just like other things.

Realisation always comes too late for me.

2 more days of classes to attend. Then, I'll be "free". Really? Sometimes, I feel that in school is better than out of school. I just want to bang my head for thinking this. Didn't I always moan and groan about schooling?

Humans are always so fickle-minded... At least in my case.

Sigh... I can't control time, I can't seem to make use of time and worst of all, I don't treasure time.

At this point of time, it makes me think of the song 'When all is said and done' by ABBA. I don't know how much in context it is. But, 'Thanks for all the generous love and thanks for all the fun, neither you nor I'm to blame when all is said and done".

I don't know about the generous love portion but I did have fun in school. I also know there's no one to blame except me, when all is said and done.

Whatever is the case, the song is stuck in my head, probably due to listening it over and over again when I'm trying to learn the lyrics.