Thursday, November 28, 2013

Commiserate

A few more days to exams, and then I will be free! I can almost taste the freedom despite being in this critical period of revision. 

I daresay I am kind of, not giving up, but just a reluctance to study because everything is so boring. I don't mind studying or doing assignment (much) but asking me to sit through exams is really hateful. There is so much uncertainty and insecurity with exams. Why should the stakes be so high on a single component? There is so much that could go wrong. 

Maybe this is my second last semester in University. Maybe I am just sick of studying and mugging. I truly enjoy myself this semester, with newly made friends from Thailand field study. This is the semester where I don't feel lonely, where I can hang out with friends, eat lunch, commiserate and do project(s) together. However, this is also the semester where the modules I picked are pretty awful. I barely feel rested after 6 weeks in Thailand when the semester started so there's a feeling of losing out on the summer holidays. 

That's why I intend to make full use of the December holidays and simply relax and (finally) do the things I want. My last semester will be the beautiful finale. 

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Exams

Oh bother, this is hateful. 

It's that time of the year again where it's time to prepare for exams. 


Friday, June 14, 2013

Time to say Goodbye

This is probably my last post before I leave Singapore tomorrow afternoon. 

Despite all my pessimism, misgivings and doubts, as long as I remember I chose this path because I am exchanging 6 weeks of summer holidays for 2 semesters of easier time, I should be fine. As the saying goes, "as you made your bed, so you must lie on it". Nobody forces me into making this decision and I vow to be brave about it. On the other hand, "bravery is by far the kindest word for stupidity". 

Seriously though, why am I crying as I write this entry? I am prone to histrionics and am melancholic in nature. 

That's why I hate goodbyes, more so, long goodbyes. But now, it's time to say goodbye to Singapore, to my family, to my home, to my room, to my bed and all the things I've taken for granted. This will be the first and last time so I shall try to cherish it. I won't fail, will I? 

Catch you on the flip side. 

Thursday, June 13, 2013

Count the seconds till I'm home (with you)

2 more days till I leave Singapore! 

It's still pretty surreal to me even though I am in the midst of packing. 

When I wake up during the night, I thought to myself, it will be 6 weeks later before I get to sleep in my beautiful bed, under my new duvet with the air-conditioner on, surrounded by my Angry Birds toys. Will I even be comfortable going to the toilet in the middle of the night, especially during the home-stays? Will I feel safe

I have to bid goodbye to all the comforts I have taken for granted, both provided by the country and home. I can't walk around in shorts and T-shirt and go to the nearest shopping mall to buy things. I can't even eat my favourite/comfort food. The gist of it is I can't be myself. I'll have to put up an act and 'entertain' people all day long, even at night. I, who value my freedom of expression, having to curb myself and rely on others' whims and moods. 

To be more efficient in managing and passing the time, I have devise a method through psychological means. Time is divided into pre-, post- and everything else just falls under "during". I tend to concentrate on pre- and post- event, because the act itself is often short and quick (like ripping off a plaster). Isn't it true for examinations, projects deadlines and what not? I've planned what I intend to do when I return on the 27th of July, down to the first meal I'll be having upon arrival (McDonalds, in case you are wondering). 

I've divided the entire field studies into first and last 3 weeks. I reckon the first 3 weeks will be the worst. Once July is here, it will truly be a countdown till departure. 

If all else fails, countdown clocks are the best psychological weapons. Nothing gives me greater pleasure than watching the days gone by. Each day that is done will bring me one day closer to Singapore again. 

When studying becomes a chore and the modules pose no interest to you, you know it's time to close that chapter. Thus, one more year. 

Monday, June 03, 2013

Countdown

Woah, why is June moving so fast?! It's already the 3rd!

In just 12 days I will be leaving Singapore and that thought is both depressing and poignant. Essentially, I will losing 1 month this year; July. July will be practically non-existence for me. Oh, I will be deeply aware of each passing day. The question is will I be able to enjoy each day or will it just be a countdown? A strike for each day till I am home again. 


Friday, May 31, 2013

Chronicles of May

Well, this has been an eventful month. I'm going to miss May so much when the new month comes around tomorrow. 

The first and second week of May were marked with examinations and then my birthday. I visited Gardens by the Bay with my mother on the 10th to "celebrate" the summer holidays as well as to see the tulips from the Netherlands. 

On the 11th, I had a post-birthday dinner at Outback Steakhouse with the family. 12th June is officially the start of the summer holidays. 

The much anticipated Star Trek: Into Darkness featuring Benedict Cumberbatch as the villain opened in Singapore on 16th May. I watched it in glorious IMAX 3D at Shaw Lido with my friend on the 18th. It was an awesome experience as we were seated right in the middle of the giant screen. As a fan of his whom main reason for watching this film was because of him, I grinned/laughed at inappropriate moments. There's just this sense of pride in seeing him in his breakthrough role in a Hollywood blockbuster. For the second time, I watched it with my cousin, who is a fellow fan, on Monday, 20th May. 

The following day, I went back to the university to pay the rest of the fees for the Thailand field studies, in cash, I might add. Sometimes, the university can be so rigid and inflexible. 

I had a short and nice meet up with my good friend from secondary school on Wednesday. Ahh, the good, old days of secondary school where stress means doing homework and passing tests/examinations. 

The final week of the month was passed in a frivolous manner. This is my idea of relaxation; of giving my brain a break from all those months of hard work. When June comes around, the countdown for the field studies starts. Of course, I simply cannot wait to get home. I will be literally counting the days till I get back to Singapore, to my comfortable life, home and bed. 

Thursday, May 30, 2013

Phobia

Was feeling rather sorry for myself last night and so I cried. Sometimes, you just have to let the tears flow to feel better. My right arm hurts so badly that I doubted I slept a wink. This is why I hate  pain and to a larger extent, needles. I would even further to diagnose myself with Angliophobia

This is also why I avoid getting injuries as much as possible, hence, a sedentary lifestyle. This is why I would never go for tattoos or unnecessary invasive treatments. I would rather live with my not-so-nice teeth than to go for braces. Who doesn't like the perfect set of teeth? But the last thing I need is to subject myself to teeth extraction. Life isn't perfect and I am content to be ordinary. 

This brings me to the purpose of this post. Yesterday, I gritted my teeth to go for immunisations as part of the Thailand field studies. The last time I went for an injection was back in Primary 6, when I was 12. Out of the 3 vaccinations, I did 2 in my right arm. As for the last one, I 'chickened' out. 

Sigh, the things I do for studies. This will be the first and probably the last time I will willingly subject myself to the pain of injections. I need that pot of anesthetic cream. 


Monday, May 27, 2013

Soon-ish

2 more weeks of summer holidays before the field studies in Thailand. 

Oh god, this is still too surreal for me. The fact that I am leaving my comfortable life still has yet to sink in. I have a feeling once I left Golden Mile Complex on the bus, the pangs of homesickness will truly hit. 

I don't really put much emphasis on preparing for what will happen during the entire programme, what will always take precedence is the pre- and post-trip activities. That's how I work, be it for leisure or academic.

I think about the small comforts I can bring along with me. I think about what I will do when the plane lands in Singapore on the 27th July night. I think about the plans made for August before another semester starts. 


Sunday, May 12, 2013

Post-Examinations


It's kind of anti-climatic actually. One moment I was fretting about the last physical geography  examination and 2 hours later, it was over. Summer is finally here! 

The best part of the examination period is keeping the notes, not quite forever but locking that memory in one of the rooms within your "mind palace". 

Year 2 is over for me. A few weeks from now, I will going for my special semester 2 field studies module. If and when I survive the 6 weeks ordeal, my life will be made slightly easier in Year 3. 

6 weeks of holidays in exchange for one year of easier time is worth it, isn't it? I don't want to sound ungrateful but sometimes, I doubt my decision. Besides, I hate how the committee sounds like we should be falling over our feet in gratitude for the opportunity given. Are you kidding me? It's not as if the whole trip is truly subsidised or that we are staying in some pretty hotels. 

Friday, May 10, 2013

22 years

Now that it is 12.02AM, it's Happy Birthday to moi! 

22 years in existence and I hope everything will just go smoothly for me. 

On a more awesome note, my examinations are finally over, after dragging on for 3 weeks! Liberty has never been sweeter or well-deserved! Regardless of the grades I will get, I am glad to learn many new concepts and ideas and questioned what people have been taken for granted. This is the one aspect I like about Geography as a discipline. It explores areas which can be touchy or "out of sight" to many people. 

I shall enjoy the few days of summer holidays before I leave for a 6-week Thailand trip which is going to my life. 


Tuesday, May 07, 2013

A Nasty Surprise

I freaking hate shocks or should I say, nasty surprises. When I plan something, it is literally written in stone and to ask me to change the date or time, it is screwing up with my planner. 

And this is why I am extremely pissed off when I saw the latest news about lengthening the stay in Thailand for field studies. It was originally put on 24th July and so, I booked my very advanced tickets for The Phantom of the Opera tickets on the 27th, a Saturday. 

I thought I've given myself enough buffer time but no, I saw that the arrival date has changed, tentatively, to 27th July. Are you f***ing kidding me?! I did not just spend nearly $300 worth of B res tickets to be UNABLE to attend the musical, OK? Not only are those tickets not refundable, they are also considered prime seats! 

Even if I am willing to fork out extra cash, there is no longer any choice seats left. I can't leave that god-forsaken place early so the only thing I can now is to book another ticket on another day. I will just have to work more hours to pay for it. The other 'bad' plan is to hope that it's an early morning flight and I get to arrive to Singapore before 2pm. 

Seriously thinking whether I have made the right decision in going to Thailand for 6 weeks. (6 weeks!) Not 1 or 2 but 6 arduous weeks of toughing out in the countryside. I am a born-and-raised urbanite. Living in the countryside is what I envision for a short getaway from the hustle and bustle of the city life. 6 weeks will be enough to 'kill' me. 

For the greater good, they always say. I am sacrificing my last summer holidays to experience another world altogether, all in the name of education. 


Thursday, April 25, 2013

This


Ahhh, the foul smell of examinations is the air again. This is basically how I feel right now. 

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Week 13

It's that time of the semester again where things are wrapped up and you start to have fondness for the lecturers. Week 13 is here, again. After the past few weeks of hectic rushing for projects, essays and what not, it's the calm before the storm. 

Looking back, I can't believe I survive March and some parts of April. When push comes to shove, you'll be surprised at what you can accomplish. I surprise myself sometimes with the things I thought I cannot do but I did it anyway. 

That's why it is said that the human mind is resilient. We adapt, we cope, we bounce back in times of adversity. 

I distinctly remembered the start of the semester when I broke out in cold sweat after reading through the continuous assignments' specifications. "How on earth am I going to write another argumentative essay?!" I questioned myself. "What on earth is an annotated bibliography?" I asked myself. But looked, I finished all the assignments, am alive and well, albeit tired (I did lose a few nights of sleep). 

The end of April marks the start of my final examinations and I really want to start my revision early. Less procrastination and more work, eh? Too bad I am a master procrastinator. I used to tell myself that word doesn't exist in my dictionary. Alas, that's not the case now. 

Tuesday, March 05, 2013

Afternoons

This is why I hate afternoon lessons. The energy just seems to be sapped away from me and I am in no mood to study for my test. 

I just need to survive March and the first couple weeks of April. If I get through this tedious period, I will come out stronger (maybe not). 


Sunday, March 03, 2013

End of recess week

And my recess week just ended... 

It's back to usual tomorrow and it's be 7 weeks before I can see the sun again. One of the main reasons I dread about the resuming of the semester is all the assignments deadlines. I have assignments due literally every week and I'm kind of screwed this time. 

There are 2 essays to be written! Two! I used to struggle with just 1. 

Of course, I have this nasty "creative" presentation to be done with the group members. Apparently, the professor wants to be entertained by students generally making a fool of themselves. I don't get it why can't it be the usual, "boring" powerpoint presentation. 

Sighs, this is irritating and frustrating. I am in dire need of a "real break"- whereby I don't have to worry about anything that has to do with work/studies. 


Saturday, February 16, 2013

Xenophobes of the 21st Century

Oh, honestly. I find it so ironic that there are some people in this country who have xenophobic tendencies, who have enough of this country and its ways, see migrating as an option - to greener pastures.

I find it laughable how some people like to paint such a degrading picture of this country while projecting other countries to be utopia. Just like how these "true-blue countrymen" treat foreigners, I would like to see how they are treated in a foreign country. Sure, the government over there may welcome them, but do they even think they would be welcome with open arms by the locals? In their eyes, the migrants are there to steal their jobs and opportunities as well. Would they think racism is dead over there?


After years of studying how multi-cultural and racial harmonious this country is, it must have come as a shock to discover such blatant acts of racism and xenophobic mindsets. If their grandparents or great grandparents were to be around, what would they think?


Sometimes, the way some of my fellow countrymen behave makes me questioned whether they even see the bigger picture. There is such a phrase, "Do unto others as you would have others do unto you". They hate foreigners in this country and want them out. Sure, are they willing to give up their relatively comfortable lives and cheap commodities though?


"The developed world will always need a developing world". That's why there cannot be equality. If the developed world wants to enjoy cheap goods and services, eat meat three times a day and embrace material comforts, then there must be a developing world to support it. Where else can we get the land and manpower for the things we enjoy? 



Monday, January 21, 2013

Start of the semester

So, the semester starts, whether I wanted it or not. 

My timetable is pretty good yet bad at the same time. I have a three-day week on odd weeks and four-day week on even weeks so that's great. On the other hand, I have to endure the morning rush-hour for my 10am classes and evening rush-hour after my 6pm lectures. Each trip home is horrible and sometimes, suffocating. Of course, when people are pushing and shoving, tempers are bound to rise.

I especially like the fact that weekends come early because I'm free on Fridays. Last Friday, it was shopping with my mother at Orchard in preparation for the upcoming Lunar New Year. It was a fun day which I haven't had in ages. Shopping on weekdays has its peaks, two of which are the staff being more attentive to one needs and the fitting rooms being relatively free. 

Speaking of Lunar New Year, it is less than a month away! I'm already in the festive mood or should I say, I've never got over the "festive hangover" from Christmas last year. I am feeling rather positive and as always, a hint of nostalgia as we all aged one year. 

Friday, January 11, 2013

Pre-semester Stress Disorder

Oh. My. Goodness. 

My heart just raced ahead when I saw how much work there is waiting for me when the new semester starts. And I thought to myself, why am I doing this again? Oh right, I need the degree certificate to aid my life. 

Going to a local university has got to be a wrong decision on my part. But, I just want to be that few percentage of Polytechnic graduates who get to go to a local University, to show that I can make it too. If I get emotional over it, so be it. I have no choice but to grit my teeth and go along. It will be worth it in the end, wouldn't it? At least I get to be an undergraduate and wear the gown, right? At least, there is a sense of pride when I said I'm from XXX. 

As the saying goes, "when Life gives you lemons, you make lemonade". 

God, I feel pathetic to be so affected by academia, just when the government and society is downplaying on academic achievements. I should be letting go! This is my second last year in an educational institution, for goodness sake! Why am I still so strung up about grades and projects?! Why indeed? 

I need a therapist. 

The Hobbit: An Unexpected Journey

On Wednesday, I managed to catch a second showing of The Hobbit: The Unexpected Journey with a friend. For the first showing, I watched it in normal 2D. This round, it was through the new technology, IMAX 3D HFR. 

I have to say, despite all the naysayers, I feel that the much improved 48 frames per second is so much clearer and coupled with 3D, the whole movie experience is made cooler, more stunning and awe-inspiring. Some parts of the movie feels like one of those 4D shows in theme parks. Additionally, as a special treat, we got to have a 9 minute preview of Star Trek into Darkness and saw Benedict in 3D! How awesome is that? I was crossing my fingers in hope of seeing this trailer and wow, was it a treat! 

There is much doubt about the need to spilt one book into 3 separate movies but I find that by doing so, the characters are given more breadth and the storyline has more depth. The typical movie-goer gets to enjoy, understand the different characters and their stories better as compared to a movie that is rushed.

The cinematography is gorgeous and the scenery shots are simply breathtaking! Of course, Sir Peter Jackson did the right choice by insisting that Martin Freeman played the role of Bilbo Baggins. Martin Freeman is simply brilliant in portraying the main lead with the right amount of wide-eyed innocence for a middle-aged man. He's made for the role, or rather, the role is made for him. The other supporting cast are just as brilliant!

I had a bit of a giggle when I saw how "adorable" he was portrayed in the film. It's so different from the other well-known role that he plays, Dr John Watson. He's so steadfast and reliable in Sherlock.

It has been ages since I last read the book and to be honest, I can barely remember a thing in it. Thus, I do not feel that the movie is unfaithful. I know the scriptwriters has woven in additional material to beef up the characters and boost the excitement and intensity. 

Now, of course, I can't wait for the second instalment - The Desolation of Smaug which features Smaug the dragon played by Benedict Cumberbatch!  

Tuesday, January 01, 2013

Grades for Semester 2.1

This may be a little late but I figured there's no better time to write an entry like the present. 

My results have improved a little since last semester which makes me really happy. At least there's no Cs and what's more, I've a A-! 

I can hardly believe that for that accursed module, American Power, I actually received an A-. I must have either done very well for the final examination or the cohort standard has decreased. 

For my other 3 Geography modules, I received B+, B and B-, bringing my overall CAP to 3.58. It's a slight improvement from the previous 3.50. 

For semester 2.1, I sought to work harder, put in more effort in my studies by cutting down time spent on Tumblr and fanfiction. I'm glad it works out. 

Thus, as a New Year resolution, in this upcoming semester 2.2, I shall put in greater effort as well. I want to maintain my grades, at least achieving Bs for all modules. I want to start reading the readings and do revision early. Is it too much to ask for? 

Anyway, in the last remaining days of my holiday, I shall relax and enjoy as much as I can. Then, when the term starts, it's time to get serious. 

2013: the world still turns

Fantastic, Meretricious and a Happy New Year!

It feels great to finally have the chance to use that much loved phrase from Sherlock.

So, it's the first day of year 2013. What changes? Probably nothing much. The world is still turning, the rain still falls, the economy still remains sluggish and we're still hit by downturn. US is scrambling to meet its deadline to deal with its "fiscal cliff". In other parts of the world, conflicts still rage on.

If only everyone could better oneself, I'm sure the world will be a better place.