I've been living my bubble of peace these past weeks. Therefore, it's a rude awakening for me when I realised one of my friends went for interviews for NTU and SMU. Already?!
As you probably will know, this bought me tumbling back to the ground. I have been dreading the news since I knew that there will be interviews. I know that I can't escape interviews in this lifetime. But, somehow, I just have this aversion and phobia for it.
I blushed terribly. This is what I am afraid of. And that I'll make a fool out of myself. There, I said it. My fear is so simple and yet profound. If I go to a counselor to voice my fears, their advice would perhaps be "don't worry, they don't know you anymore than you know them" or something else. The truth is, I know all these. I know the theoretical parts, but I just can't apply it to real life.
Sigh. I don't know what I will do. Of course I want the Universities to contact me, it will be a step towards gaining acceptance. But, on the other hand, I am so scared and worried that I would not do well. Seriously.
People will probably say there is nothing to worry about and it's very normal. I am not a normal person. Nevertheless, since there is no escape, I will just have to make the lines as I go along. I am good at that, no? It will give me a heart attack and makes me hyperventilate but if the results is good, then I have conquered.
