What was I thinking when I thought I could handle two exams on one day, one after the other?!
I wasn't sane. I must be mad.
After last semester, you would have thought I'd wise up, but no. Oh god, no. A series of circumstances caused me to make this "stupid" choice and now I am paying the price for it.
How can I memorise both Methods and Lifespan Development at the same time?! My brain isn't built for this!
On the other hand, once Wednesday is done, I am throwing out the books, figuratively. It will be party time and I intend to slack all day, everyday at home and gorge myself on Tumblr and fanfiction. I am going to paint and read again. I'm going to watch movies and go out again. I'm going to drown myself in TV shows.
Oh, in the midst of all the grousing and angst, let's not forget my birthday is right around the corner. I'll be 21 and I guess I've to be more mature, maybe.
Monday, April 30, 2012
Saturday, April 28, 2012
Thursday, April 26, 2012
Conquered the World
Yesterday I conquered the world, tomorrow the solar system.
It's tomorrow! I'll find out how well I've studied the bane of my semester tomorrow. I'm not even asking for an A, just B will do. It should be easy enough right?
Sometimes, I wonder what would happen if I take a gamble. You know, not to study that hard and go for the exam. What would happen? What will my results be? Atrocious, no doubt. If I suck even when I studied my socks off, I would be a failure if I don't even try at all.
One thing I like about a morning exam is that you will get less time to do final revision. You will have less time to worry about last minute details and just "What the heck, let's do this".
It's tomorrow! I'll find out how well I've studied the bane of my semester tomorrow. I'm not even asking for an A, just B will do. It should be easy enough right?
Sometimes, I wonder what would happen if I take a gamble. You know, not to study that hard and go for the exam. What would happen? What will my results be? Atrocious, no doubt. If I suck even when I studied my socks off, I would be a failure if I don't even try at all.
One thing I like about a morning exam is that you will get less time to do final revision. You will have less time to worry about last minute details and just "What the heck, let's do this".
Sunday, April 22, 2012
40 marks, 40 percent
It's considered the last day of the study week and what have I done? I've finished one subject: Water and the Environment.
I think it's still alright, even though I could have move faster.
I seriously hate this limbo between hell and heaven. Hell being the exams, obviously. I think I rather it be a quick "death" than to let it drag on. So, c'mon already, I'm almost ready to tackle the paper. But, alas, the exam is one week from now.
40 marks. 40 percent. There's no stopping them now.
I think it's still alright, even though I could have move faster.
I seriously hate this limbo between hell and heaven. Hell being the exams, obviously. I think I rather it be a quick "death" than to let it drag on. So, c'mon already, I'm almost ready to tackle the paper. But, alas, the exam is one week from now.
40 marks. 40 percent. There's no stopping them now.
Monday, April 16, 2012
I think I'm going to die
"Molly, I think I'm going to die" - Sherlock
Yes, I think I'm going to die, whilst preparing for exams.
Exams are a big part and I dare say, the only important part of school life. Let's be honest, what do we go to school for if not to do well for exams? Unless they change the whole system (minus the exams), I will stick firmly to my belief, thank you very much.
From the beginning of your school life, it has always been preparing for all kinds of tests and exams, is it not? Even in University, there's mid-semester tests and finals to fret over. You would think that University is more than testing people over how good their memory is, but no.
It's so unfair how 2 hours can more or less determined how "good" a student you are.
Yes, I think I'm going to die, whilst preparing for exams.
Exams are a big part and I dare say, the only important part of school life. Let's be honest, what do we go to school for if not to do well for exams? Unless they change the whole system (minus the exams), I will stick firmly to my belief, thank you very much.
From the beginning of your school life, it has always been preparing for all kinds of tests and exams, is it not? Even in University, there's mid-semester tests and finals to fret over. You would think that University is more than testing people over how good their memory is, but no.
It's so unfair how 2 hours can more or less determined how "good" a student you are.
Friday, April 13, 2012
Ordinary
It's the last day of the semester which means that I'm one week away from the final examinations. The bad thing being I've been procrastinating for the past 2 weeks.
Can I freak out now? Exams never fail to send me into hyperventilation despite more than a decade of so-called "experience" in it. Things change, people change.
In fact, the older one gets, the higher one climbs, the further one will fall and the higher the stakes are. In primary and secondary schools, the worst scenario a student can get is get a red mark in the report card. You still get to carry on. Honestly, I can't imagine the disgrace if you fail in University. You could be kick out, for goodness sake!
I made a sane choice to go for 4 modules this semester. It hardly matters than I am prolonging my stay in the University for half a year. Oh well, the deal has always been 3 years, and thus, 3 years it shall be. As for Honours, I don't even want to think about it now because I have no great aspirations at this junction.
In Poly, I was constantly driven by the want and need to do exceptionally well because I have to get into a University. I simply cannot imagine myself working full-time so soon. Having a degree means the world to me, not only does it looks good (for the family and I), it also means higher pay.
In terms of workload, this semester is relatively lighter than last semester. I admit that I slack through the first half of the semester. I'm feeling the guilt now.
I made the wrong choice by choosing Water and the Environment. Seriously, the maths and calculations portion is a turn-off. I can't believe the bane of my existence has come to haunt me in this form. Why in the world would I want to know how to do integration?! Oh god, I am going to die over this exam! It's only 40% which means that I should aim to pass, that's all. I simply cannot wait to get it over and done with. Good riddance to rubbish.
Sometimes, I couldn't help but to wish that I have talents in other areas. That way, I wouldn't have to put all my hopes into one basket. I wouldn't have to put so much heart and mind into academics and what rot. I'm not that artistic, musical or even athletic. I don't even like sports.
I'm ordinary. "You're ordinary" as Moriarty scoffed at Sherlock.
Can I freak out now? Exams never fail to send me into hyperventilation despite more than a decade of so-called "experience" in it. Things change, people change.
In fact, the older one gets, the higher one climbs, the further one will fall and the higher the stakes are. In primary and secondary schools, the worst scenario a student can get is get a red mark in the report card. You still get to carry on. Honestly, I can't imagine the disgrace if you fail in University. You could be kick out, for goodness sake!
I made a sane choice to go for 4 modules this semester. It hardly matters than I am prolonging my stay in the University for half a year. Oh well, the deal has always been 3 years, and thus, 3 years it shall be. As for Honours, I don't even want to think about it now because I have no great aspirations at this junction.
In Poly, I was constantly driven by the want and need to do exceptionally well because I have to get into a University. I simply cannot imagine myself working full-time so soon. Having a degree means the world to me, not only does it looks good (for the family and I), it also means higher pay.
In terms of workload, this semester is relatively lighter than last semester. I admit that I slack through the first half of the semester. I'm feeling the guilt now.
I made the wrong choice by choosing Water and the Environment. Seriously, the maths and calculations portion is a turn-off. I can't believe the bane of my existence has come to haunt me in this form. Why in the world would I want to know how to do integration?! Oh god, I am going to die over this exam! It's only 40% which means that I should aim to pass, that's all. I simply cannot wait to get it over and done with. Good riddance to rubbish.
Sometimes, I couldn't help but to wish that I have talents in other areas. That way, I wouldn't have to put all my hopes into one basket. I wouldn't have to put so much heart and mind into academics and what rot. I'm not that artistic, musical or even athletic. I don't even like sports.
I'm ordinary. "You're ordinary" as Moriarty scoffed at Sherlock.
Sunday, April 08, 2012
Less Than a Month
Thank goodness it's April. It means that in less than a month time, I will be enjoying my first "summer holiday". I can almost taste the freedom. I gave myself a week of hiatus to have fun online before the tough job of preparing for the finals. Sigh, examinations. I abhorred exams.
In a month time, I will be celebrating my 21st birthday which is not exactly a big deal in Singapore.
Well, technically, you are an adult and sure, you will be eligible to vote. But mentally, I am not and don't relish being one. There's nothing great about being an adult other than the fact that you can book a hotel and tours. I can officially go on holiday trips on my own but as if I could do so.
I do know what I want as my present though. I am going to buy more charms for my Pandora bracelet after waiting for a year.
I won't be holding the 'obligatory' birthday party because it is not my kind of thing. I will probably regret it when I am older but hey, why do something you don't feel comfortable with? It's not as if I have lots of friends I can invite anyway. It's sad but true.
For now, I just want to get the finals over and done with and get ready to welcome May (and the holidays) with open arms. I have so many plans for the holidays. It's just too bad that I won't be able to go overseas. Please, let there be a miracle.
In a month time, I will be celebrating my 21st birthday which is not exactly a big deal in Singapore.
Well, technically, you are an adult and sure, you will be eligible to vote. But mentally, I am not and don't relish being one. There's nothing great about being an adult other than the fact that you can book a hotel and tours. I can officially go on holiday trips on my own but as if I could do so.
I do know what I want as my present though. I am going to buy more charms for my Pandora bracelet after waiting for a year.
I won't be holding the 'obligatory' birthday party because it is not my kind of thing. I will probably regret it when I am older but hey, why do something you don't feel comfortable with? It's not as if I have lots of friends I can invite anyway. It's sad but true.
For now, I just want to get the finals over and done with and get ready to welcome May (and the holidays) with open arms. I have so many plans for the holidays. It's just too bad that I won't be able to go overseas. Please, let there be a miracle.
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