Thursday, December 30, 2010

The Year Gone By


Woah, hold that champagne bottle! New Year is not here, not yet anyway.

Where has the year gone?! I wonder. It seems like I just read the newspaper about the The Aughties and write that post to celebrate 2010.

Looking back, 2010 is a year filled to the brim with events and memorable memories.

The inaugural Youth Olympics Games held in Singapore, now who can forget that? It was a defining moment for us as we stood in the stands at The Float singing the National Anthem and world youth athletes celebrated their legacy. We are part of history.

Riverdance at Marina Bay Sands is another first. Riverdance tours is bidding Singapore goodbye and I am so glad that I managed to catch it live, for the first time at the gleaming new Marina Bay Sands theater.

Not to mention, this is our first time staying at Marina Bay Sands, in a suite no less. The view from the Sky Park is amazing and now I see can why it is the new jewel in the skyline of Singapore.

I got into Director's Honours List 2010 which made the past year of hard work worth it. I have been waiting for that day for one year. To earn that certificate is more than what I deserve.

How could I forget the 11weeks of internship that haunts me till this day. It was, overall, a good experience but I wouldn't want to do it again. Now, that is one thing best left in the past.

On the entertainment side, 2010 earns special mention for "movies of the year". There is the start of an end - Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1, Eclipse, Rapunzel: A Tangled Tale, How to Train your Dragon, Alice in Wonderland etc.

There is also the grand opening of The Wizarding World of Harry Potter theme park at Orlando, Florida, World Cup at South Africa which Paul the Oracle Octopus got famous, the problems-packed Commonwealth Games at India and many more.
Orchard Road flooding, anyone? Where passers-by were trapped by knee-height muddy waters along the prized shopping belt. Now, that was memorable because up till that day, flooding in Singapore is close to non-existence.
Other more sombre matters to note are Mdm Kwa Geok Choo's passing - others would remember her as the late Mrs Lee, the Downtown East fatal slashing where apparently gangs are still thriving in Singapore.

Like always, I don't want the year to end. It's too fast, always too fast for me to play catch up. I look back and think, why? Year 2010 leaves much to be desired and yet, 2011 is not any better. For a start, the first 2 months are jam-packed of exams and projects submissions and did I mention, I am graduating.

Sunday, December 26, 2010

White Christmas 2010

I'm dreaming of a white Christmas, and got the wish!

Except that we are situated along the equator, and that makes the temperatures up in the sky impossible for snow to form. But, we got the precipitation form.

Christmas eve was as awesome as always. I had to work till 6.30pm though, but that's alright. With the table groaning under the weight of all that food, we toasted to a happy holiday season. There was a brand new Christmas tree and of course, there were lots of presents under it. Santa has been to town.

We sang along to Christmas carols, and played games. We had to draw lots for the presents and had plenty of laughter.

Christmas morning came bright and early and we met up for a session of bowling at Safra Changi. I didn't play because I had my nails all nicely done up in pink with blue glitter french tips.

It was a wet Christmas alright. It was raining and drizzling the whole day.

We went to an Aunt's house to gather for another Christmas feast and rushed down to Plaza Singapura to catch The Chronicles of Narnia: The Voyage of the Dawntreader.

As always, like every year, Orchard was filled to the brim with revellers. After dinner at Sakae Sushi at Orchard Central, we waited till the rain stopped before strolling down Orchard Road to soak in the yuletide spirit and take in the lights.

After that, we had a coffee break at TCC and just in time to be in the shelter before the downpour begun. It will be the perfect Christmas if only the rain took a solid form. Instead of being in the shelter, we'll be in our winter wear with snow falling on our heads.

I wondered what happened to those people behind us and those VIPs watching the open-air concert in the middle of the road, caught in the sudden downpour. I guessed it will be a mad dash.

All too soon, it was time to part and yet another Christmas came to an end. It was a great season, with lots of songs, activities and memories.

Cheers to years of glorious Christmases ahead!

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Finally

Ho, ho, ho! I had finally had the interview with my ex-boss and I got my cheque. Phew, I thought I will never see the day. There's only the performance appraisal left. But, they say they will mail it by year's end.

As Christmas nears, I am sort of getting a whiplash. I dread it, yet love the whole season in general. Why dread, you ask? It's because it means a lot to me, to see it passed, means I will have to wait for another year.

Seriously, the prospect of the new year is not very tempting. I guess I dread 2011 more than any other years because I will be graduating soon. Like real soon. And I have been in a "quarter-life crisis" since I was in secondary school.

I want to continue studying, really. But, we'll see how it goes. I seem to remember vaguely the troubles I have when I left secondary school and going on to tertiary education.

Ahh well, I want to promise that I won't put any more depressing posts, at least till the end of the year. I'll try.

Monday, December 20, 2010

White December

By Canele
Only 5 days to Christmas.

December always move too fast for my liking. For 11 months, I lamented over the slow pace of the year, yet when December comes around, it just disappears in a twinkle of an eye.

After this week, it's the New Year's week and poof! 2011 is here. Arghhh, no! It's too fast, I have yet to enjoy myself fully.

I always hate the new year, it's a year of beginnings, expectations and hopes. And I dislike that. There is the feeling that you have aged one more year, and the world will be different.

It's another year to endure. I'm the type of person who looks back and thinks of the good old days.

We all dream of a white Christmas, especially in the tropics. But, as you know, too much of a good thing can become a bad thing. Just look at the conditions in Europe now, I'll bet they are sick and tired of the snow.

Indeed, the heavy snow storms and blizzards wrecked havoc and chaos across Europe. From London to Paris to Belgium, international airports has to close in the busiest season. Traffic comes to a standstill and people are suffering.

Next week, I will compile a list of the interesting events that took place in Singapore and the days which are the most memorable in my life.

Friday, December 17, 2010

Not Amused

I. Am. Not. Amused. At. All.

You can be sure that I am not a happy camper. I mean, not a peep from those in the godforsaken company since the 15th, which is supposed to be pay day. So, what now? Pray tell.

I have signed myself for their Christmas party thing, which is lucky they invite us. Wow, I never thought I will see this day. *Roll eyes* I signed myself up so that I can have this chance to get things over and done with. At least, when you are face to face with those people, you can ask them and get the answers, or at least some sort of confirmation.

Why are they doing this to us anyway!? Any remote fondness I have of them is now passe. You are kidding me if you thought that I will be like a good little dog to go running back.

Like I said over and over again, if not for that project in which I have to interview an entrepreneur, I wouldn't have bother that much. No pay? I'll just let the liaison officer handle it. No appraisal? Tell the liaison officer.

Just because I have this little bright spot I have to erase, I have to grit my teeth to bear with this kind of nonsense. Now I know how those salespeople feel when people bang the door on their faces. How rude, just because you are "high and mighty".

I don't know, I can keep trying, but that just shows how desperate I am and I hate that feeling. I suppose I can look for a back-up, but who? Who is an entrepreneur, whom I know of?

Time will tell, for now, I am looking at this issue from all kinds of angles, thinking of different problems that could arise and how to solve them.

Tis the season to be jolly? You bet. Not.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Grrr

Grrr, I am really pissed off right now. And it's all thanks to that stupid company which I used to intern with. Right, the problem is that they still own me my pay.

I am angry because they did not bother to even message me to tell me that the pay cheque is out. What the crap?

Second thing is that I email the boss, wanting to have an interview with him for my project. Ok, I am the desperate one here. I want to get things done, as soon as possible. Therefore, I am pushing for the interview to be done pronto.

Not to mention, I have yet to get my appraisal. Gods, why are things so messed up? I hate it when things are left hanging. I really do.

Please, just let me do this according to what I want.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Flustering

It's a week to Christmas and I am in a fluster. It's all pointless worries, maybe. The year is ending and I have so much to accomplish, to do, to hand up. I have deadlines to meet, which stinks.
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The more I think about, the more depressing it seems. I can't even properly enjoy Christmas and New Year in peace. I hope to finish what I want to accomplish by the first week.
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I don't know, I need to get back on my feet again. After nearly 3 months of internship, which I have sort of lost track with, I can't find myself. Like my friends, I shared the same feelings as them.
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You CAN'T be a zombie when you are in school, that's for sure. Back in internship, it's all robotic and you can shut your mind out. When the sun sets, oh, it's time to go home and enjoy yourself before repeating the motion again for the next day.

I like school, I just don't like the responsibilities you have for yourself, the stress you pile yourself with.

I'm very bothered by the fact that I am relying on the company to help me in my individual project. Please, if not for that, and my pay and appraisal, I wouldn't have care about what they are doing or whatever.

All that I do, I do it for myself.

Friday, December 10, 2010

Commercialised Christmas


Who doesn't love Christmas? Not me, for certain. In fact, I love Christmas and it is one of my favourite holidays of the year.
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What's that not to like? The sights. The sounds. The smells. The feel. Christmas fills your five senses and it's everywhere!
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People have been saying for years that Christmas has become too commercialised. I agree but that is partly what I love about this festive holiday.
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The Christmas advertisements for various shopping malls, the streets all decked in in Christmas finery. The fake poinsettias and wreaths. Christmas shopping and exchanging presents have all but become part of the norm, even a tradition.
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I grow in an environment of commercialised Christmases. Besides, I am not a religious person so Christmas is all about chocolates, lots of goodies, sales, presents and being with family. I can enjoy everything at its fullest, from Ole St Nick to Christmas trees to presents to traditional Christmas songs.
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Don't be mistaken though, I love the idea of traditional Christmas too. You know, snow gently falling outside, logs smothering in the fireplace, sharing a toast and roasting chestnuts, building a snowman, having a real Christmas tree. I love all those and it's one of the dreams of mine to live this out.
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I want to celebrate a white Christmas, not what Europe is facing now though. But, when you situated in Singapore, the epitome of what Christmas is not, you have to make it work. No snow will be falling but we make do.
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Christmas always makes me nostalgic, as I have said over again. I don't know why but I just feel that another year is ending and I didn't achieve what I wanted. Somehow I feel a little excluded, like a person who look from outside at the celebrations going on inside a house. It's silly thinking but Christmas makes me feel that way.
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I make it a point to visit Orchard when it's near Christmas time to soak in this festive spirits. I want to see the Christmas lights and take in the sights of the wondrous displays of presents and sales. I love the sounds of Christmas carols in the air and the bags of presents that shoppers carried.
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Commercialism has never look so good.

Thursday, December 09, 2010

Tangled Movie Review

Disney released this latest "princess" movie dubbed Tangled, or in the case of Asia, Rapunzel: A Tangled Tale to celebrate its 50th animated feature.

It has been quite long since I last watched a new princess movie. I mean, I didn't manage to catch The Princess and the Frog in 2009.

Tangled/Rapunzel is certainly a keeper.

The storyline has been changed and yet, strangely, I don't feel insulted. Rapunzel is one of the beloved fairy tales where the princess and the prince lived happily ever after. However, there is no prince in this remake and Rapunzel is so much cooler in here.

The plot has not been mangled till it lost the magic .

The animations is so awesome and detailed! I love the lusciousness of Rapunzel's hair and the 3D effects are pretty well-done. It is said that this film incorporated CGI with the old hand-drawn Disney Classic feel.

Although some people have mentioned that the songs are not as powerful as those in Beauty and the Beast or Pocahontas, I think that the soundtrack is one of the beautiful parts in this movie.

Mandy Moore has captured her role as Rapunzel perfectly with her delightful voice and singing. Zach Levi has also scored well as Flynn. Maximus and Parscal are too adorable, even if they do not speak.

I guess what appeals me is the new story-telling and the generally feel-good effect you felt. Though when they are singing "I see the light", my eyes do get a little teary. What can I say? Even fairy tales are capable of reducing me to tears.

UP has captured emotions brilliantly. Wall-E and How to Train Your Dragon break boundaries in the animation industry. These films received raving reviews and their soundtracks surpass expectations.

Tangled is definitely high up on the list of must-watch animated films. It just delights a person.

I cannot believed that Disney is thinking of doing the unmentionable - to stop making princess movies for the time being. That is preposterous, as echoed by many fans from all ages. We grow up with Disney classics, even those who are older now. Disney's princess movies are almost like one of its trademarks, just like Mickey Mouse.

The early movies of my life consist of animations and fairy tales. I hope that Disney will not forsake their legacy.

Wednesday, December 08, 2010

Riverdance at Marina Bay Sands


On Saturday, we went to Marina Bay Sands for a mini-holiday of our own.

Two weeks ago, I booked the 1 night Riverdance Package which consisted of 2 A-reserve tickets to Riverdance and a night stay at the Atrium Premium room. The whole package cost about S$589. It was worth it because those tickets would have cost S$150 each.

We got lucky again. The original room that we booked was not available and we got upgraded to Sands Suite instead. We also received a S$50 voucher to spend in the hotel.

The whole hotel is so grand although there are simply too many types of people walking up and down. The towers look impressive from a height and of course, how can we forget the view that is waiting for us at level 57?

It is too bad our room is located on the 5th level. It was too low to see anything magnificent although the construction of Gardens by the Bay is right in front of us.

The room is obviously beautiful and spacious. There is only one king-size bed but we got 1 en-suite, 1 bathroom, and a sitting area. There are two large screen TVs and a beautiful white bath-tub.

We changed and went up to Sands SkyPark. The infinity pool looks really great and I can’t help but to feel proud that Singapore has such a wondrous building. Being a Singaporean, I am too thrilled given the opportunity to be up there. It is no wonder tourists will gaze in wonder at this cleverly structured swimming pool. I overheard some people saying they don’t dare to swim in to pool as they may fall over.

Indeed, the feeling of the infinity pool is that it gives swimmers a sense of being at the edge. The design is seemingly seamless and minimalistic.

After dinner at Rasapura, we went to SweetSpot, a cafe selling an array of beautifully made desserts with fine pricetags attached. Since we were given a $50 voucher, we used most of it on 3 pieces of desserts.

My mother and I walked over to the theatres where Riverdance is taking place. We have one of the best views in the theatre, I presume. We were in the stalls and somewhere in the middle. I am so happy to see that the whole theatre was nearly occupied and there were many foreigners. Of course, most of the audience were adults.

Riverdance is a combination of elegance and strength. The beauty of the female dancers who show their daintiness and lightness of feet. The powerful moves of the male dancers. The lightings are awesome and the choreography is perfect! The accompanying live music suits the different acts to the tee. The mood grew infectious towards the end and the dancers were greeted with a standing ovation in the final act.

The best part of the whole show? The Prime Minister and his family were there too!

After the satisfying show, we went back the hotel room and ate the desserts we bought.

I slept on the sofa while my brothers slept on the floor. It was too bad I couldn’t sleep properly because I was without blanket.

The next morning, I woke up quite early and the Standard Chartered Marathon was taking right in front of us. Before we checked out, we went up to the SkyPark again.

It was truly a gratifying mini holiday for me. We got the better end of the deal and enjoyed ourselves tremulously.

Monday, December 06, 2010

Glorious End to Internship

The last of internship! Oh, how long I’ve been waiting for thee!

While I am very happy and relieved, I can’t help but to feel a hint of sadness. I would miss the colleagues as they have been good to us.

Goodbyes are always hard for me and yet, you have to understand, I am really happy that internship has ended.

On Thursday, after work, we went to The Cathay for a farewell dinner at Astons. We had to queue for about an hour just to get seats.

Still, it was great and when we were outside The Cathay, there was this giant snowglobe where people can go inside to take photos. One colleague insisted that we all took, though there could only be a maximum of 4 people inside at one time.

The 3 interns and another colleague were the first to go. I have to admit it was quite fun, we had to go inside one by one else the showglobe will deflat. The “snow” inside is, of course, fake, and made of pieces of thin plastic.

On Friday, the two of us interns received presents from the others. It was really sweet and cool of them to get us such lovely and personalised presents.

We each got a name-card holder with our name on it and a coin-clipper. Thankfully, we had something for them too.

Last week, we bought some goodies in the form of waffle sticks and chocolates while we were outside. We just didn’t have chance to wrap them up. I guess we surprised them too.

Alas, it turned out to be a busy for us during the last day of internship. We didn’t have much to hand over to the new intern from Singapore Polytechnic. I hope they miss us and the efficiency. I used to think that we double-up as their permanent admin/nanny.

The deed is done and the difficult part now is to write the report. They say this is just this beginning, but for now, the time has gone.

11 weeks. I have been waiting for this day to come for 11 weeks, and yet, strangely, the time seems to fly. I think this is best part about time, regardless of whether you like it or not, time will still pass and that there will always be an end.

Friday, November 26, 2010

Pathetic

I know I have been in hiatus for a week. I can't find the energy to do stuff, much less use my brains and type a post out.

Fridays are the worst. Thank God it's Friday? I doubt so. Ever since I signed myself up for work at night on Fridays, I have been thinking and thinking whether this is even a good choice to make in the first place.

I most certainly am not desperate enough to want to work for 2 hours on a Friday night to earn 10 bucks. I don't know how to explain, but let's just say I am doing a favour. The instructor is in need of people, so I go. The money is just an incentive.

If you think that working from 8 plus to 6pm then rushing to another workplace without even having time for a proper dinner is easy, think again. This is not the kind of life I find myself doing. I leave the house before the sun rises properly and only step into the house when the moon has long risen.

It's more than 12 hours of continuous working, no wonder my eyes feel sore. Gods, why am I doing this again?

No proper food makes me an irritated person.

I am thinking of not going for next Friday, since it will be the end of my internship, and I really want to celebrate it. We'll see how it goes, I suppose.

Another matter I want to rant on. Bus 58 is going to be the death of me, I thank the stars that I don't work at Ubi permanently. I am sure I'll go crazy by the month end.

It is peak period during the 6 o'clock rush hour. So I don't see the reasoning behind not deploring more buses out, especially since that place is an industrial area with only one bus service. I am sure that it will be better when the years are gone, but what about right now?!

It is stupid to wait for more than 30 minutes for one pathetic bus to take us 4 stops to the MRT station.

I know that it is useless to talk about it here. I should totally being this case up to LTA and SBS bus service about this useless system they are having. But, my rational is, I am not there for long anyway. It is just 5 more days for me and I'll not return.

Speaking of which, it's only 5 days away from freedom! The day I have ben waiting for is going to arrive! Like real soon!

Monday, November 22, 2010

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1 movie review


Cinematography (making of lighting and camera choices):

The scenes and backdrops are wonderful and gorgeous! I can almost feel like I am part of this, it will be so much better if this is in 3D.

Acting:

Acting has definitely step up a few notches. The trio are exceptional great in this film and the supporting cast beef the whole movie up.

Daniel Radcliffe does not look and sound so wooden as compared to the previous films. He really did well this time.

Emma Watson really did a good job. The torture scene with Bellatrix is intense and very real. The viewer can almost feel her pain by her screams. Her interactions with Ron are amazing.

Rupert Grint surpasses himself in this one. He provides the comical relief and yet proves to be wonderful in those more intense scenes. I love him in during the fighting scene with Harry as this shows that he can perform in various circumstances.

Tom Felton has a minimum screen time but I like the close ups of his face, the fear and uncertainty shown was portrayed quite nicely.

Alan Rickman too has minimum screen time but fans joke that this is the film that he talks the most in that single scene at Malfoy Manor. I take heart that we will see more of him and his story in Part 2.

Ralph Fiennes as Lord Voldermort is awesome!

Helena Bonham Carter as Bellatrix She deserves the honour of bringing insanity to her character. Her character development is one of the strongest.

Bathilda Bagshot – She and her scene are too intense and scary. It was a job well done by her. She creeps me out when she changed into Nagini.
Bill Nighy (Scrimgeour) is good in his role, albeit a short one. I love the way he talks.
Peter Mullan (Yaxley) did a great job as the Death Eater who was chasing Harry, Ron and Hermione.

Special Effects:
Dobby and Kreacher are great in the film, especially Dobby! The effects are natural and feels complete.

Plotline:

As much as everything is taken into account, the book-to-movie adaption is one of the best.

As this is a 2 part adaption, there are a lot more room and time to put in scenes that make a difference. Despite the changes and cuts, I don’t feel that I am watching a different story altogether and that to a fan, is extremely important.

My favourite scenes?

The whole movie consists of great scenes put together which makes this such a beautiful movie. Below are scenes which I like. But, exceptionally well-done scenes are Bathilda Bagshot scene, Minstry scene, 7 Potters, silver doe scene, locket scene, Dobby dying scene.

First and foremost, the part when Hermione obliviate her parents were well done and shows the sacrifices she made to keep them safe.

The 7 Potters scene provides comic relief yet has a sinister undertone. And how can I forget the chase by the Death Eaters? It was all very fast and action-packed.

I like the wedding scene when Kingsley’s Patronus came in and warn them that the Death Eaters are coming.

The on-the-run scenes are very powerful and convey the realism and rawness that the trio felt when on the run.

The Ministry scene was well executed and proved to be quite true to the book. The addition of some light moments such as Harry-Runcorn stiff walking and Ron-Cattermole reactions were a nice touch. Yaxley chasing them finished the scene wonderfully.

Every single scene at Godric’s Hallows was great, from the finding of James and Lily’s tombstones to the laying of Christmas wreath to Bathilda Bagshot. It was very scary, heart-thumping and creepy. This is easily the most frightening and hair-raising scene out of the whole movie.

I like the way The Tale of the Three Brothers was done. The animations seem mysterious and like Warwick Davis said “very Tim Burton-esque like”.

The silver doe scene is one of the hot favourites of mine, it was one of the well-play scenes in the whole film. I love the soft bluish glow of the doe and Harry diving down into the icy lake to retrieve the sword. Of course, Voldemort-Harry and Voldemort-Hermione are too great in the locket scene! The wraith-like apparitions are truly Ron's nightmares.

I really love the torture scene with Bellatrix and Hermione. It was amazing and so tense. And how can we forget the pivotal point in the movie? Dobby’s dying is as touching and tear-wrenching as the one in the book. Except that Luna didn’t say her speech and there was no “Here lies Dobby, a free elf”.

The ending with Voldemort getting the Elder Wand is just and a good place to end part 1 and begin part 2. It provides the right sort of suspense to start part 2.

Soundtrack/score:

The score by Alexandre Desplat is good and suits the different scenes. Many fans who are passionate about scores of previous Harry Potter films said that Nicholas Hooper and John Williams did extremely well in the scores. I have to agree with them as Half-Blood Prince and the first two films are my favourites.

I feel that the score is good but the focal point will on the last film as the battle intensifies and climax is neared.

Bad points:

Wormtail did not die! Need I say more? This is one of the biggest deviations from the book.

Kreacher telling of the locket story can be improved so much more.
There were other minor scenes and details that were edited out but those were not as bad as to destry the whole movie.

Good points:

I love that they add in the scene where Hermione obliviate her parents and wipe out her existence in that household. I wish that they could do the same for Ron though. I would have loved to see the ghoul.

This movie places emphasis on Harry, Ron and Hermione relationship and dynamics which previous films neglect to do so or take for granted. Little details here and there do make a difference in presenting the friendship between the three.

I especially like the newly added scene which shows Harry cheering up Hermione by dancing with her. It is such as sweet scene.

As they travelled through various places, the names of the casualties being announced on the radio is a nice touch to the isolation and hopelessness they faced in the battle to save the magical world.

I like how the crew keep the funny scenes in and add in details from previous books which were missed out in the past. I also like how the scriptwriter lifted chunks of dialogue straight from the book.

Overall feel:
Overall, the movie is very enjoyable for fans because we know where everything is going, yet at the same time, as this is an adaptation, we are in for surprises as well.

I love the rawness of the film, the emotive and heavy scenes coupled with light-hearted moments here and there. It is intensive yet not too overwhelming. It is well balanced and viewers know for sure that this is no longer a children book but that there is a war on the horizon and everything has changed.

Of course, this movie tugs your heartstrings and manipulates your tear ducts.

This is easily one of the better films in this movie franchise. I LOOOVE, love, love it! If I thought that Half-Blood Prince was good, then this is ten times better than that.

Ever since Chamber of Secrets, I have all but lost hope that another Harry Potter film could follow the legacy of remaining faithful to the beloved book series. Is this my favourite movie? Perhaps, I need to watch it one more time to make sure I do. If not this, then the last one will be on the pedestal.
David Yates, David Heyman, and all the producers and crew behind this success ought to give themselves a pat on the back for a job well done. It was brillant, amazing, and fantastic!

If non-readers and the average movie-goer feels that they are missing out on a lot of things, they have to realise that the movies are targeting fans. Read the books before watching the movies, nuff said.

Yes, I do realise that Part 1 is a little tad boring for average people and some fans, but take note that this is just Part 1! The book is divided into two parts and it is a no-brainer that Part 1 will of course contains less thrills. Wait till you see the full movie, Part 1 and Part 2, before making a choice that you hate it.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Magic is Might


One of the highest grossing movie franchises in the world, literally Warner Brothers' money tree.
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Harry Potter has ignited a spark in the hearts of millions of readers and a passion that was lost for quite a while.
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Harry Potter accompanied many during their childhood years and beyond, still many in their adult years. "He" makes worldwide readers and fans unite through the creation of fansites, world premieres and midnight parties.
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Harry Potter is J.K.Rowling's gift to us and we pay tribute to her.

The movies are a god-send. Imagination is powerful, but having the scenes play out right in front of you, now that is something magical. Movies convert even more people, some to readers, fans, others just for fun of it.

It has been eight years now since I become a reader and a fan and I never look back. I cannot imagine a life without books, Harry Potter being one of those.
To admit, I even imagine what would happen if Hogwarts and the magical world is real when I was young. It is all childish dreams but it don’t hurt to dream and make good use of the brain.

How I wish I can be part of the student body at Hogwarts, drinking pumpkin juice, hanging out with friends at Hogsmeade, sleeping on a four poster bed, going for Potions class, having a wand, sending owls home, etc. With magic, some things can be made so easy. Of course, I would still choose technology over magic.

Those who are not fans or readers will not know what is so appealing about this series. They scoff at the ridiculous antics fans did and laugh at the devotion and passion we show. But what they didn't know is that they will never experience such a phenomenon.
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To give them credit, perhaps some of them do not need such things in their lives. Perhaps they have "better" things to do. Perhaps, they don't even like reading and treat the movies as just another movie to watch for the year.
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On the other side, Johnny-comes-latelys will not experience the anticipation of each book release, the countdowns, the speculations, the wonderful times fans alike shared on fansites. I am not saying they don’t deserve a share of the pie but those feelings of the past cannot be felt now.
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All 7 books are now sold as a collection, a far cry from the past, when we had to build up our collection slowly. I would love that but it takes the pleasure out of it. Fans who got on the ride with Harry Potter since the start grow up with the young actors/actresses and the trio. We journeyed with them through the ups and downs of life and the magical world.
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I am glad and blessed that I am considered one of the pioneers.
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Harry Potter was and still is magical.
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Though the flame of Harry Potter dims; it will never truly go out because fans will find ways to keep the spirit alive. All else worldly aside, memories will never fade.
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I hope that my passion for the books/films will live on for many years to come. And even then, when I am feeling dull, there will the books to keep me company and let me relive the good ole days.
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Sunday, November 14, 2010

Justified For a Spilt


Not justifiable for a spilt? Truly, critics remain critics. Critics aren’t a smart lot if they still don’t get it after so many years. They apparently did not read the books or take the time to understand what the whole series is about. It is not about entertainment with ridiculous and redundant wit.

I love how someone says that critics do not have the emotion bond with the movies/books and thus, not know the concerns of fans. And another say critics hate movies loyal to the source.

Deathly Hallows Part 1 is just the start to an end. C’mon, it is meant to be dark, despairing, raw and angsty. It shows the hopelessness and frustrations 3 teenagers felt on their own, with secrets to bear and heavy burden on their shoulders.

A spilt is justify here because there are simply too many important scenes and details to be left out for a, at most, 3 hour movie. I think fans wouldn’t mind sitting through a 6 hour movie but industry standards don’t make it happen. So we have to settle for the next best thing, which is to spilt the movie.

Deathly Hallows will be great, perhaps it will be a little tad boring in Part 1 but part 2 is where all the action takes place. Can you imagine not splitting it? It will be like a story with giant holes in it because of all the cutting of scenes, like previous movies.

It has been my dream since forever to watch a movie that is faithful to the book. I don’t care about how artistic or action packed that movie is, to me, a movie is good when first and foremost, it fulfils the criteria of remaining faithful.

We, fans for so long, matter most when we say whether that movie is good or bad.

Fellow fans on mugglenet couldn't have put their words any better. Here are some choice comments: “in a way I am even more glad they didn't like it because they felt it was more of a literal adaptation than the last few films”, “I think we truly are the ones that matter in saying how good or bad the movie seemed to us. We've been on this journey with them for nearly a decade so I'm sure most of us will love that there is a split.”

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Mutually Exclusive

I've been thinking a lot. Just to make it clear, having a good experience and having fodder to write for report is mutually exclusive with liking it. A more apt comparison would be, enjoying a good experience is mutually exclusive to having a good time.

Why do I make these two statements? I have been thinking about this internship for a long time.

I know it is about having a feel of the working world. I know it is not about money but the experience. I know it is about being at your best behaviour to please others so that they can write a good appraisal. I know all these and blah, blah, blah. I know all the political-correct answers. I know life is about entertaining people.

But, don't you think it is hassle and a chore to live for others' sake? Don't you think that sometimes you have to stand up for your rights and freedom of speech? Don't you think it is tiring to look at people's faces all the time and worry about the consequences?

I do and I did.

I mean, I don't say that this internship isn't good. I guess I have the better end of the deal, because I could have been sent to a worse company. But, this internship is killing me, I repeat, killing me.

I feel out-of-breath with the pace they are going. That event they are having is bogging me down. I can't even properly enjoy my movie due to that darned thing.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

20 Questions

I realised I can pretty blunt and honest when I want to. Ha, it's quite embarrassing yet at the same time, gratifying, because I can speak the truth.

A colleague asked us if we are happy that the internship is coming to an end and instead of forced laughter, I replied with a simple "yes". I don't think it is insulting whatsoever, perhaps it's blunt but at least I feel sane.

I have enough of entertaining people through the days. I know I say that I can't lie to save myself, but I am always diplomatic, answering questions with diplomatic correct answers. Sometimes, I just have enough.

Therefore, when it comes to simple questions like this, I can only answer what I want to say. In fact, if it is without consequences, I would have say more. But, I won't go there. At least not now.

I know I am not happy but I am surprised it shows. Does it shows? Is it that obvious I am feeling rather wrong and out of tune? The boss asked me a mind-boggling question today. It seems like today is judgement day indeed.

He asked if I was feeling stressed and was I OK. To admit, I got a shock, because as far as I know, I didn't post anything that revealing on the facebook page. Come to think of it, I have to say no, I am still hanging there and since this is not a full time job anyway, I don't have to think about when I am home.

Am I stressed? I guess so. I am feeling under the weather lately. Is it because of the insane weather or because of the rushing up and down for work, I don't know for sure. It can be a combination of all these.

I am fortunate not to be directly involved in the event coming up. Phew. However, this means that I have to do all sorts of stuff. This internship is becoming more like a odd-job labourer.

Next week is a terrible week but I am glad that I've Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows as an incentive. See? Now you get it why Harry Potter is so important in my life, because it keeps me going and never forsake me.

Tuesday, November 09, 2010

Nothing Worthy

Is it a good thing that sometimes I forget that I am in the middle of internship? I can't tell for sure. People may argue that it's too comfortable to even think of about but I beg to differ. All it means is that there is nothing worth remembering.

Whenever weekends or holidays come around, I will forget that internship or my workplace exists. When the whole thing is over, I hope to cleanly forget every, single thing.


It is not that I hate that place or its people. It's just that whenever I feel a hint of affection for it, I will be dealt with a major blow that ruin that image.

I can't wait till December the third comes around, because I know that I'll be free. Free from this horror. Whatever that comes next, I'll cross the bridge when I at it.

3 more weeks!

Monday, November 08, 2010

Booked!

Hooray, hooray! I booked the tickets for Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1 on Sunday!

It must be the first time that I managed to book tickets so early. I am pleased with myself though I am so afraid that my tight schedule would ruin things for me, not to mention my cousin and brothers.

Anyhoo, I am planning to go for another showing with my friends. This time, of course, I will have more choices.

GVmax is nearly full at the 7.00pm slot, I can't believe it! My first choice is GVmarina but the bad timings spoil it for me.

Finally, to mark the last 10 days to the premier, I'll end each post with a quote from Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows that I really like.

"The letter was an incredible treasure, proof that Lily Potter had lived, really lived, that her warm hand had once moved across this parchment, tracing ink into these letters, these words, words about him, Harry, her son." ~ Pg 150

Saturday, November 06, 2010

Advance Ticket Sales

No way! is my reaction when I saw that Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows advance ticket sales is now on for Golden Village. How can it be?! Why am I so slow this time?!

For ages, I have lament over the slow updates of the theater. Now, it just caught me unaware! Darn it!

There are a couple of criteria I have when it comes to watching "movies of the year". For one, I have to be at Golden Village Marina or Vivocity. Another criteria is that I have to watch on that day itself, or settle for the next.

I hate the feeling of everyone watching that movie and waiting for my turn. Call it whatever you want, but it is just something I have strong feelings about. This is one characteristic of being a long-time fan, isn't it?

If I am situated at another country, say Britain or USA, I would have joined in with the midnight celebrations if given the chance.

Being in the middle of internship is a big blow to my plans, again. I can't watch the Deathly Hallows on the first timeslot available, and can only do it when evening comes along.

The timeslots on Thursday for GV Marina are so bad that I want to hurl. The only timing I can go for is 9.30pm and that, alas, is too late for me and my cousin.

Reluctantly, I want to settle for second best which is Friday, also 9 plus. Then, I saw an opening. There is a showing at 7.00pm on the opening night, at GVmax. I want to jump at this chance, of course. But I have to see my cousin's timing too.

The time will be very tight for me, but at most, I will cab down to the destination. It is a treat for myself, and all the troubles I put up for this past month or so. We'll see. I just hope that things will go my way and hopefully, I will book it tomorrow.

Now, you see, it's going to be worth it.

Saturday Woes

Oh gods, today was worse than I thought.

I had fun over the last week and now it's payback time. The amount of homework from each child is that many and we had to mark all of them, today. There were only 3 of us left to finish the work. Bloody hell.
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It's 8 hours of straight work for me, on a Saturday. I started at 9.27am and ended at 5.29pm. I saw this coming and my reaction is relatively numb over this.
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At least, I got pay by the hour. Oh, why am I doing this anyway? I keep questioning myself. At least, I won't feel guilty over how I spend. And I know I need the cash, if I am going to watch Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows 1 at least twice.
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Contrary to common belief, I do not do this just for the sake of money. Oh no, you can call me a chronic goody-two-shoes who is too responsible for her own good.

When I have to do something, I make sure I do it right. When something falls under my care, I have an obligation to make sure it works out right. That's how I am and I hate it. A recent example was the camera business. It's all in my previous post.
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I am seriously in need of therapy. I need therapeutic shopping. Actually what I need is a good holiday, free and easy. All I want is to relax and relive, is that too much to ask?
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I don't know which one of the two jobs I have now is worse. I can only console myself that regardless of what, jobs are temporary. If you hate it that much, shove it.
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Anyhoo, the thought of fulfilling my goal is comforting.

Thursday, November 04, 2010

Too Good For My Own Good

I'm too pure and good for my own good. Why am I making this statement? Because I feel awful and guilty conscious over something like this. I feel like a little child, with hands caught in the cookie jar.
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I was a facilitator for today as well. I went to QiHua Primary School with the trainer and that programme was supposed to end at 3.30pm. Therefore, I was in a dilemma over whether I should go back to the office. By right, this is what the office staff told me, I should because there is still time.
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But, it is quite obvious that it is a no-brainer for me to return to office at such a late hour, only to go home a few minutes later, right? I fretted over this and turned this situation in my mind over and over again. It bothered me to bits.
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In the end, because of the timing, I stuck with my common sense and went home, not before informing everyone in the office of course. If it wasn't for the camera, I wouldn't have worry so much actually.
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Now you see, I can't be a Slytherin. My conscience prickles me if I ever thought of doing something easy and good for myself.
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With the assurance from my boss, gods, I feel so much better and at ease now. I can't believe myself, why?! Perhaps with exposure comes experience. I sure hope that I can be street smart and wise the older I get. I can't imagine being like this forever.
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I was bothered by the camera business. The camera ran out of battery and they had to use it on Saturday. I promised I would bring it back on Friday but now I had to make sure it was charged. This was the stupidest thing I ever thought of doing. I planned on waiting for the camera to finish charging before going home.

This was actually a very long story and nasty business. Fortunately, it turned out so much better than I expected, with there being an extra battery and the boss in the office on a public holiday (he practically lives there).

Tuesday, November 02, 2010

Bad Start

This week is a bad start of November. I should have known better than to get out of bed.

On Monday, I don't have to report to the workplace but had to go to 2 schools instead. I was to be the stand-in facilitator as they cannot find any SMU students for it.

It wasn't fun, as per say, but I wouldn't mind doing this once in a while. As I am still a newbie, they practically throw me to the sharks, I sit around and make myself useful from time to time. Otherwise, I just took photographs of the on-goings.

There is no briefing for us interns, as we are their last resort. I didn't know what to do or to expect. I am not good with students or children, and I am quite "wooden" in a way.

It was so awkward as the students greeted me with a salutation or "teacher". I mean, c'mon, I am barely older than them, especially the secondary school students. It is mushy and weird to put a label to my name.

Certainly, this is an eye-opener for me and this is what I want to experience during the course of this internship. This is fodder for my report, to be frank. I have a lot to write about this and of course, writing it down here just means that it will be so much easier for me when I start on the report.

I went to red-dot museum with Bartley students on Monday. At first, I thought that it will be fun, as I can get to enjoy a field-trip. Alas, there wasn't much to see at the museum, the 'normal' students lost interest after a while and even I can't really appreciate the designs.

Thankfully, I got to go home early after the programme ended at QiHua Primary School.

I already feel sick, rushing here and there. Still, I thank my lucky stars that so far, I did not encounter any real problems finding the different schools. I had brushes with bad luck, but still, everything went quite well. I hope to continue riding on this wave, until the end of this internship.

Today, it wasn't a good day from the start. When I was waiting for the MRT, I received this SMS that I or the other intern has to report to Bartley Secondary because the original facilitator couldn't make it. Internally, I groaned. Why did I have a bad feeling that something like this will occur?

In the end, I had to go. I was prepared to be late anyway, and should there be a need for me to take a cab, they better pay it for me.

I wasn't very late and those students are getting on my nerves. I can't take rowdy and boisterous people and this is exactly what those 'normal' students are. They fooled around and cannot sit still to listen. Even the trainer is at wits end.

This week, it's same-old for me, all I can say is, thank goodness the week ends on Thursday. I have never been so grateful for a public holiday until now.

Saturday, October 30, 2010

A Good Day

Yesterday was a good day, more or less. We ate at Hans to celebrate a colleague's birthday and bought a cake too. But, it was a hectic day as we had to rush filing again.

In the evening, after a late log out, I went down to Changi Airport to meet up with the rest of the family and aunt as the grandparents were coming back from China. We dined at Astons at Terminal 1 and went for dessert at the Chinese restaurant next to it. The mango sago is just so brilliant!

I feel that we should do this more often. It's great to just forget all my troubles for a while and have fun. Too bad, I've to work on Friday nights starting from the following week. We'll see though, as I already said I can't guarantee.

Terminal 1 is so stuffy and packed nowadays, due to the construction going on. I know that they are trying to beautify the place but the on-going process is hardly worth it. Since I got use to the airiness and open-concept of Terminal 3, T1 just seems like a poor comparison.

My grandparents seemed to have a good time at Hainan. I suppose the treatment is different when a celebrity, albeit a local one, was part of the crew. There were about 200 tourists in this tour package alone.

While I would have baulk at the thought of so many people in one tour group, there are merits too. For one, the local people over there would welcome you with open arms. Imagine booking half of the hotel, you could just see the dollar-signs in their eyes.

A-waiting

19 days till Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1 arrives at the silver screens in Singapore shores. Of course, this is also the time where the movie is screened across the world, thrilling millions of fans and viewers alike.

The news of Deathly Hallows part 1 not being made into 3D disappoints and heartens me. It is disappointing to note that we’ll not be seeing this epic story given a boost with the magical touch.

However, between a bad 3D movie and a good 2D one, I’d rather watch the latter. It is heartening to see that the producers and the crew behind this franchise putting a foot down against churning out shaky 3D effects with the lack of time. This is what they should be praise for.
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Too many times have studios and what not fail to deliver the anticipated 3D because they just don’t give a care.
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Thursday, October 28, 2010

November Dreams

Hooray, agony October is coming to an end! The countdown can officially begin for "numb" November.

Although, I must say, with public holidays, birthdays and of course, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1 all scheduled in November, I can hardly hate it. These are the only things that can make me happy.

I've kind of lose my fire over the everyday posting of the going-ons in my internship. After a while, it kind of gets old as the same old things happen over and over again.

I realise being an intern means you are pretty much a "dog". When the person throws the stick, you are supposed to run after it. Now, I don't mean it in the literal sense. I know the saying that a person will only treat you how you want to be treated. But, I am not in a position to negotiate or even voice out.

When things start to look better, things will go downhill after that. I have a new term to coin this period: zombiefied. I am not myself.

It is not just me who see this in the company. Even the newcomer can see it. The company, which supposedly dabbled in innovative and creative courses, is not so innovative and creative afterall. In fact, the system it adopts is a rigid and narrow one.

The whole system seems forced. They can't move out of their bubble although they tried. The result ends up being neither nor there.

They want to accept others' ideas but refuses to change. They have this thinking that "oh, you can go ahead and do it, I trust you". However, when you submit it, they will be like "no, you should do this, you should do that".

I mean, what is the point of giving free rein to someone only to dash it by wanting the final outcome to go your way. It's beating around the bush and they are just wasting everyone's time. You want it your way, fine. Do it yourself or just tell that from the start, for god's sake!

And the worst of them all sits at the boss seat. He is the one who started this whole "creative" and "innovative" business, but he fails in what he preaches. He can't see things beyond what he has in mind.

All I can say is, I am glad that I am a temporary staff. It's too stuffy in that sort of place.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

November Hopes

This past 2 days had been great, almost to the point where my internship seems to be nothing but a dream. How I wish it is true.

On Saturday, after work, I went for a manicure. It's been too long since I went for one, and seeing that I just received my pay cheque, I wanted to treat myself. Alas, I can only go for conservative colours because I still have to work.

On the other hand, it's gloomy thoughts for me as I was asked to go to work on Friday nights. I mean, what?! I don't want to but I can't lie so I said I'll try. After all, if I arrived late, I'll just have to call and say that I can't make it.

Sighs, I do not do this for money, despite me saying otherwise. I just couldn't lie to save myself, although I do have my pride.

Anyway, the next 2 weeks will be kind of good for me, as I do not have to work on Saturday and the upcoming public holidays. Never have I been this grateful for public holidays!

Oh, November looks to be a eventful month, for the entertainment side. There is, of course, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1 to look forward to. I'm already trembling with anticipation over it.

On the 3rd of December, the last day of my internship, I'll exempt myself from Kumon because I want to celebrate my freedom.

Today, my grandparents went for a vacation in China. We went to Changi Airport early in the morning for breakfast before sending them off with cousin's family. It was a fun day indeed.

Everytime I went to Changi Airport, my heart will give a little tweak as I watch travellers departing and arriving. I want to travel too. Even though I hate the idea of flying, I still want to travel. It is such great fun to put down what you are doing and just enjoy and relax.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Gloomy Days

I know I've been blessed in many subtle ways, but how can it be, when I only see gloomy days ahead?

I pray for respite and rain. I want to see a rainbow. I want to be alive again.

I never said I was happy, at least not in the last few weeks. I never want to be part of this insanity. I sure isn't living, as per say, but rather, just managing and surviving. It's truly a pain, I tried to be open-minded and positive, but it soon turn to dust. All those hopes and wishes, they have disintegrate.

I'm begrudgingly doing what I am told, I would never do this willingly. I drag my feet to work everyday.

Thankfully, as I kept telling myself, this is temporary. All I have to do is to endure for 6 more weeks and then I can wiped them out from my life. They will ease to exist.

I can't believe how disgusting they are. Stop it! Stop trying to be helpful or whatever backstabbing thing you are doing! Stop trying to suck away my weekends! I have given up my mind and body, but I will damned if I offer my soul on a silver platter.

It is said that if you have enough of a job and finding yourself dragging your feet to work, it's time to change that job. At least, this applies when you are young or have no obligations to make. When you can afford to be choosy, please do. It's that time when you ahve no mouths to feed, or to be the breadwinner.

I wonder if I would be that type of person later on. I wish I would. I am supposed to be young, free to experience different kind of jobs and settings. If I really hate that job, I what to shove it away and hop on to another one.

I guess I still have part of my humanity left, since I am defying them in little acts. Don't judge, because it means that I can be happy. It pains me to see myself becoming a living zombie. I hate the fact that I feel like a convict each day it is time to go home.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

I Know It Is Not This

"I don't know what I want, but I know it's not this"

I came across this title on a book in the library and I fell in love with it straight away. It totally conveys what I want to say.

It was pay day yesterday during my internship. Phew, 4 weeks down. After dividing the amount by 30 days and multiplying by 25, I realised I am only earning S$14 per day, from 9am to 6pm! It was astonishing, really. After subtracting off transportation fees and lunch money, I'm practically left with nothing.

No wonder my cash on hand is depleting like there is no tomorrow. On the other hand, my bank reserves can only get higher. I suppose I am nearing my plan to save enough and more for a graduation trip.

On the other end of the spectrum, since I only have taken one part-time job so far, I can only use that to compare, I am earning S$5 per hour. Not much, by any other account, that is the unofficial minimum pay.

Still, today I worked for 7 hours, which means that I've earned S$35.

Damn it, why I am working my b*** off? Oh, right, because this internship is compulsory and graded. So, that grade better be worth it because it has to be equivalent to all those cash I've lost and given away.

One more thing, what happens if your boss wants to add you on Facebook? That is exactly what my boss did. What the crap? Why is he bothering anyway?

I'm hardly going to change my life over someone unimportant. Although, if I really do add him, I will take all precautions to prevent him from knowing what I've been typing. Then again, if I ignore him, what is he to do about it? Write in my report that I refuse to be his "friend"? Creep.

Anyhoo, regardless of whether I will add him or not, I will delete him from my list once this internship ends, because our contact ends there and then.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Fodder for Bad Press

I'll start with the good news, I don't have to buy the 2,000 stamps for now. Hooray! And I've definitely learn my lesson, I'll not be bringing extra cash to work anymore. Next time they want me to buy something, I'll be saying that I don't have extra cash on me.

It's time we put our feet down at this type of workplace bullying, nevermind that they will pay us back sooner or later.

Are they kidding me? It's awfully insensitive of them to assume that our cash are at their disposal. It's also presumptuous of them to assume we will be free to follow them to some event at night.

Anyway, today, I've something else to write in my report. I'm supposed to do some kind of write-up for each of the corporate gift and they were the ones who told me that I can write what I think is right.

Then, he came to tell me that he don't like my writing and I was like, "ok, how do you want me to change?" This is what I hate about him, he did not give any constructive feedback at all. He said "I don't know, just change". I mean, what the heck, this is the way I write, you want to change, fine, at least tell me where I went wrong or something. Don't just give such a non-solid feedback.

Besides, If you don't like it, then for god's sake, you can always edit it yourself or make changes. Sure, I want to learn but you are not making it easy for me! I think he just like his own style best so he might as well write all of them himself since it looks like he can't accept others.

In the morning, when no one was in the office except the two interns, we were talking about the bad things in this company and THIS guy and how loathsome he is. The company is fodder for bad press.

There are so many things that we can't take it and the blatant way they treat us, the interns. Don't blame me for being defensive all the time because you lot aren't better yourselves.

I may tolerant this guy but I don't respect him at all. Besides, I plan of wiping the memory of them by deleting them once the 11th weeks end. It will be nothing but a nightmare.

I have no love for the company, don't worry. The only thing I want is to get my good grade and good evaluation. Once the evaluation is handed in, I'll pretend we've never met.

Once the last day rolls in, I'll throw my hands up in joy.

Monday, October 11, 2010

Money Can't Buy You Love

I can't believe how much I've spend on that god-forsaken company in this past 3 weeks. Heck, my pay is only S$440 and I've spent over S$100 plus on stationary items.

Now, this is going overboard. I've to buy 2,000 stamps tomorrow and my parents told me that it'll be over S$500 plus. So what? I'm to spend my savings on this useless thing and wait for the boss to pay me back?

What if he don't pay me back? What if he keeps delaying? I've all sorts of worries regarding this issue. He said he would transfer money to my bank account but how will I know it? Unless, I check on my bank account first before buying.

Does he think that we, teenagers, have a lot of savings? He's lucky that I do and can afford to wait till pay day to get back what is owed to me. Perhaps he think that money grow on trees. Asking students to fork out large sum of money first is pretty irresponsible and obnoxious of him.

Hmm, even my parents can't take it laying down. Already, they are questioning why am I not getting back the money I previously spent on the company.

This is a good point to jot down in my report as a learning point and problem faced. I mean, I could always say that I had to borrow money from my parents first and how I overcome it is by spending less on my meals.

Damn him and his way of doing things. We'll see how it goes. In my mind, I want to do all sorts of nasty things to him. He can wait for defamation and a "lawyer letter" if he cheats me of my money.

I feel like I'm being taken advantage of.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Worldly Goods

Something got me thinking about what worldly goods I want this Christmas and further on. Surprisingly, nothing really catches my eye, yet.

I am eyeing for a Pandora bracelet for my graduation, as a graduation present. As for birthday, I'm hoping for something special.

I'm saving up for the trip to USA, of course. I want to shop and spend those well-deserved, hard earned money on what I like. I want to see what I having been waiting to see one year ago.

I know, money isn't easy to come by and yet, there is a part of me that crave for branded items. Not the really high end brands though, just a little higher than normal, if you know what I mean.

Birthday Celebration

It's been awfully long since I update on the brighter side of my life.

Last Sunday, 3th October, we celebrated my Grandfather's birthday at some Hong Kong styled restaurant.

I always look forward to these kind of gatherings and dinners because it means that we are still together, as a family. It makes me feel very blessed as we can shared such canon moments. It is also something to look forward as it means good food, well, more or less.

Friday, October 08, 2010

Take Back My Words

I was wrong. I take back my words. Blessed indeed, yeah right.

Being a slave is apparently somewhere on my job scope. Please, I don't even have a proper job scope.

Why am I dealing all these crap anyway? If not for my grade and reputation, I would have protested. Like I said before, if there were to be no consequences, I would have done something bad to the lot of them.

Today can top the list of ridiculous things I'm being made to do. Yesterday, I had to do all kinds of stupid signages for the office. Today, all because of the printer's fault, I had to lug the laminator home and being asked to print over 40 pages of coloured documents which are not important at all!

If I'm not allowed to scold and curse them now, I don't know when I'll be able to do so. Isn't it ridiculous? Isn't it unreasonable?

I had to use MY own printer, MY own printer ink to print OFFICE stuff. Can you see the reasoning in it, huh?

Although, the boss did say that he would pay me back the ink. Of course he must, what am I, a fool that he can lead by the nose?

And adding insult to injury, I have to arrive one hour earlier to Sunday's "team building" event to put up the signage. So, on top of being a delivery man, I had to be a lackey as well.

You know what? If they ever hold a team building event every month, this will be the first and the last activity I'll be going. The next time something like this happens, I'm going to say that I'm to be a bridesmaid/attend grandparent's birthday. So what? An excuse can save a person's sanity. Not too bad.

If I'm not given the due credit for all these grieve they caused me, they are going to be in trouble. If I get a pass with commendation, that is because I deserve it. And I pass, it is more than what they own me. Damn it.

Thursday, October 07, 2010

Blending the Days

I hate writing and coming up with what is known as "political correct" answers.

You know, you wish to say something bad about that certain country but can only hold your tongue because it would mean war?

I hated it! I want to shout it out loud. But, alas, I can't, because I have a front to keep up. A facade, you may say. This is life. This is what it means by white lies. I can only put my insults in a nice package and delivered it via mailman.

Today was better. Partly, I think because the boss isn't in. I swear, he has some sort of obsessive-compulsive disorder, he has to have things all done to perfection.

Bloody brilliant, we are not designers or studying design, and yet he expect us to design all sort of stupid posters for the office. What are we, fools? He had us labelling the whole office with stupid terms like this and that. God, inwardly, I was rolling my eyes all the sheer stupidity of it.

Why would someone want to label the toilet, fridge and bench? Huh? Tell me.

Hmmm, 9 weeks more. It has been difficult to pass this week. But, as the days blend together and I taking one day at a time, it can only improve.

Tuesday, October 05, 2010

Blessed, my foot

What a miserable day filled with miserable worms! I want to curse every single of them. Damn them all!

I can't believe after a few days I said I was more blessed, something like this happens.

If there is ever a chance I am offered the job, I will very happily reject it. If ever they ask me whether I would like to join the company, I will say you can take the job and shove it. You s***kers.

Frankly, I don't need your miserable job in that miserable company. It isn't even a good place to travel to. I don't need your pitiful amount of cash, if I ever need that to survive, I'd have starve.

I'm young. I'm head-strong. I'm stubborn. If I can't be that now, when will I have the chance to be? When I'm old enough to have proper responsibilities and desperate for a job?

Obviously I have dreams. I dream of a better tomorrow. This job just tells me that if I don't look hard and deep enough, I'll suffer and pay deeply.

But, I guess, there's a salvation. First, I didn't choose this, I was forced into it. So, I can hate it for all I care. Secondly, I would never have chose this stupid job anyway. Thirdly, it is temporary! I thank all the gods for this fact.

At least, when I get the money and run, I can say good riddance to bad rubbish with relish and spend it on something that is worth a hundred times more than this sorry company.

I want to curse them with every curse and hex known. If it isn't illegal, I want to AK them.

9 more weeks.

Monday, October 04, 2010

19th Commonwealth Games

The 19th Commonwealth Games opened with a bang in India yesterday night.

This is my first time watching the Commonwealth Games. Previously, I have heard briefly about it but never experienced it because the local TV channel do not support it. I guess now we have the chance to see it is because it is held in Asia.

Anyway, after much negative publicity in recent weeks, India have more or less delivered a rousing games. For its sake and pride, the next couple of weeks have to go on smoothly, without much fanfare, if it does not want to tarnish its image any further.

I sort of fear for India, because no country deserved such scrutiny on a worldwide level. The feeling stings big time.

So, India, I wish you all the best. Because of the Games being held in your country, I get the chance to be part of the Games.

Saturday, October 02, 2010

In Memoriam

It came as a blow this evening, Mrs Lee Kuan Yew, the wife of Minister Mentor, had passed away.

It just further cement one of my greatest fear because as the days pass, I fear that Mr Lee will leave us one day. Now, I know a person can't jolly well live forever. But there is a part in me that I won't have to deal with it in recent years.

It will be a big day for Singapore should that day comes, because world leaders will surely come here and pay their respects and since Mr Lee is a renowned person around the world and have won the respect of many, this is a big issue indeed.

There will be at least a day of mourning and a national holiday will be declared.

By then, I hope to have read one of his biographies and interviews.

As a young Singaporean, not hitting twenty yet, it may seems a little weird for me to let my emotions run in such matters. I don't particularly care about politics but I do care about the welfare of the country. At the minimum, I do read and care in world issues.

I guess I can be considered a "fan" of Mr Lee as I think he really has aid Singapore a lot, together with other early political members. I shudder to think of how it will be for us should an alternate universe occurs. Would I still have free rein typing this tonight?

Comparing ourselves to other countries, we have so much to be thankful for. Yet, obviously, people will want more, searching for their perfect Eden.

Perhaps, when you become a head yourself, in your own country, then you can set up your own laws and regulations for your own people. Till then, be content and appreciative. Even better, you will realise governing a country is not as easy as you thought.

A good quote to use here is "My boat, my rules" from Sleep Talkin' Man.

For now, RIP Mrs Lee.

October Wish

My October wish is for October to go faster so that I can get away from this agony. Out of the 3 months, October will be the worst because it's limbo. By the time November comes around, it will high time to start a proper countdown.

I managed to survive another week in internship, so that makes it 2 weeks down. 9 more weeks to go.

During the internship, I’ve experienced a different kind of environment and now, I have an inkling of what kind of work and environment I’ll like to work under. The aspects of work life which I like and not preferred, this internship is more of the latter.

If there is something really deep I learn in this internship, it is that I want to keep my options wide open and really choose a good job to settle down. The last thing I want to do is to sell my soul to the devil.

I'll never do that because it is plain stupid. That is also why the plan of setting up my own business will not occur to me now. Perhaps for some, experiencing this motion makes them want to be their own boss. For me, it's something ugly and seriously, being your own boss equals no balanced work life.

Furthermore, since I will be graduating real soon, my immediate plans is to think about my options, go for a well-deserved holiday, think about it some more and go for further studies. That is my plan.

I really don't feel like working after experiencing it for 10 days. It's a chore, to drag yourself awake and drag your feet to work. You basically have no life because once you come home, it's dinner and some time for yourself before going to bed.

I was discussing about the ugly side of work with my fellow intern and I realised that I have no wish to travel that far for work, I thought gloomily to myself.
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You know what? After going through today's sharing session, I've found out I'm much blessed. The way things are going for me cannot be compared to what some classmates gone through. I would have curse and swear to the bank if I land one of their unfortunate jobs.

Calling out all day long? You've got to freaking kidding me! I will cry everyday if I have to do that.

Working in a travel agency and having to work through the weekends? Working in a hotel? Once again, no way in hell. See? This is way I did not choose tourism in the first place. I knew such horrors would happen. Choosing tourism as a major is so much different than working in the industry.

I should count my blessings then. At least, I am stuck with a 9 - 6 job, five days a week. At least my job scope is better than some which do repetitive work throughout their 11 weeks internship.

Still, of course, there are people who landed better jobs than me. I know that. But, it's somewhat sadistic to be "gleeful" knowing that there are others who are worse than you. I can't help this feeling.

Oh well, I supposed I'm a little more appreciative of my job now. To deal with incompetent and negligent supervisors are the worst lot.

This sharing session is good. It broadens up my perspective and allows me to view things in a clearer picture. Though, I have to say, that does not make me less likely to complain and rant about my worklife. I have to have an outlet to vent my anger.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Waving the White Flag

If I could surrender without any consequence, trust me, I would have wave that white flag from the start. It's not that I do not have guts, it's just that I'm more of a self-preservation sort. If I have known the horrors, would I still continue on? I don't think so.

My father once said that interns are no different from volunteers after I said that volunteers are cheap labour whom you only need to provide meals for. I don't think so. The major difference between interns and volunteers starts with the letter V.

Volunteerism means that you willingly go ahead with whatever you partake. You understand the clauses and go ahead with it because it means something to you. On the other hand, interns, at least for us, it's forced. FORCED, in capital letters.

I most certainly didn't agree or go ahead willingly. I don't understand the clauses and do not wish to sign on the dotted line.

Besides, volunteerism means you should be happy and it is justify that you don't get cash in return.

If there is one thing worse than cheap labour, it is free labour. I am having morbid thoughts about when and how we are getting our just payment. My mind is filled with "what-ifs". They are a failure if they think they can get away with that.

Monday, September 27, 2010

Singapore Grand Prix 2010



Singapore is called the "crown jewel" in the Formula One race. As a Singaporean, I couldn't agree more.

Singapore is so spectacular and amazing at night! The skyline is really beautiful, now that Marina Bay Sands stands proudly against the night sky. While it is not exactly dazzling, Singapore can be on par with other countries'.

This is the 3rd race in Singapore and it still is getting rave reviews from foreign viewers. Yesterday's race was indeed a good one, with crashes and fires and situations that makes your heart thump. Such is the case of Hamilton and Webber incident. I'm so glad that Mark Webber came out unharmed and finished in a podium finish.

Fernando Alonso won, fair and square this time. He maneuvered with style and was leading from start to finish.

This year, since my original favourite was not inside, I decided to support Mark Webber, Sebastian Vettel and Jenson Button. There are two who are in Red Bull and Jenson Button in McLaren.

Singapore is still the only country with a night race and it certainly up the standards. With the street circuit aglow with megawatt lights, it seems like the sun shines on the particular route.

The night race attracts people because it is something new and with the backdrop being picture-perfect, who could ask for more?