I QUIT

 20/10/23

Today is the day I officially turn in my resignation. 

This is a significant milestone because this is my first time resigning from a job. After being let go due to business closure in my first job, I told myself I would resign from my next job myself to prevent feeling like a wreck. 

Who would have thought that 2021 and 2022 will suck half my life away? I have never felt more shitty in my 2.5 years stint there. My mental health took a turn for the worse. While I am glad for the camaraderie and work-friendships made along the way, I wish it happened in happier circumstances. 

I feel proud of myself for once. I felt the exhilaration, the clarity for once. I hope I will never forget this feeling for a very long time. 

Regardless of what happens in the future, I hope I will look back at how far I come. And I will find the courage and strength to stand up for my rights and values. 

Tired of running away

I cannot believe it! I stayed in a toxic work environment for more than 2 years. One day, something just clicked, and I finally decided to end my misery once and for all. 

So many things have happened since 2021. Long story short, I ran until I couldn't run anymore and I decided to F it. 

The straw that broke the camel's back was the utter disrespect I had to endure when the Woman said she wanted to give me the admin position but could not even have the decency to tell me she had decided to hire her buddy. What's the point of letting me wait 1 month? And I had to approach her to ask her about the status? What's the point of setting up passive-aggressive rules and regulations? 

1. I finally caved and went for therapy/counselling! 

2. I finally decided it was time to leave the company! 

3. I finally decided to put myself "out there" and seek a new job! 

4. I finally went for an interview that was entirely impromptu (a Saturday, of all days) 

5. I got a job offer today! OMG! 

I am terrified of getting hurt again. I am now 32 years old and I seriously doubt I can handle another blow to my delicate emotional state of mind. 

But I guess what they say is true, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.