Oh dear, June already?! Time is moving too fast for its own good.
I'm getting that anxiety attack when I saw the calendar, my short-live freedom is going to be over soon. I keep asking myself where have the weeks gone?
The thought of the deadline in August is enough to make me shudder. For the remaining weeks, I want to get back what I have lost. I ought to spend my time better, get it for what it's worth.
When one has been idle for too long, what one fears most is to take on real tasks again. I am not quite ready to give up on my sedentary lifestyle, where I am guilty of spending too much of my time online and doing "useless" stuff.
I don't know if I can get back on track and mug for another 3 years. University isn't child's play and I don't want to disappoint. Sometimes, I wonder if only the situation is different and I can really take a long break, aka a gap year. But I don't feel like working full-time as well.
What I need is a well-deserved, long vacation in some lovely, preferably cold country for a couple of weeks. Alas, my goal for this holiday cannot be achieved and the only thing I can do is to postpone it to the end of the year.
Gods, I feel messed up. I ought to be happy but somehow, I just can't enjoy myself.
