School is starting soon. Arrgg!
I can't believe it, time really flies when you are having fun. I'm feeling lethargic lately, and don't feel like blogging. I don't feel like doing anything.
Even posting on the Lex seems to lose its novelty. Why is it so? My aim is to have 1500 posts in my alias when the holidays end. I'm on track so far, 1431 posts. I'm "completely dazzled!", but I love the rank "lusting for blood" more.
I guess by the time my school term starts, I'll have to cut down on Lex time by a lot, since I'm on a completely different time zone. I won't even have people playing with me anymore. Sighs. No more thinking up the weirdest answers to the Wrong answer thread, or making fun of the Cullens in the Post-Its thread. I really have fun on these threads. Sarcasm and dry-wit is what I'm trying to achieve.
I feel like I'm suffering from a burn-out. I've been posting and laughing like crazy on some 'good' days, where I'm posting on 3 different threads at the same time. It's like coming down from an adrenaline rush.
Nothing excites me anymore! I don't care much about who is cast as which character in the upcoming New Moon movie. It's not my place to say anything after all. I don't care how big New Moon is going to be. I try to be thrilled but it's just not working.
I was so worked up for Twilight the movie and now, the consequences is, I don't care about how things are going. OK, I'm kidding myself if I say I don't care at all, but the euphoria is no longer there.
Another thing, I'm getting too affected by matters that happen in the virtual world. Recently, there was the invasion of trolls in the threads of the Lex, more specifically, the Cullenism thread. Some of these people came preaching about how Cullenism, a fictional religion, is not showing respect to some other real-life religions.
I mean, come on, fans create this for FUN. If someone is offended, then don't come on the thread and you won't see it. The best way to get rid of trolls is to ignore them. It's certainly not wise to rise up to the bait.
Some people are really weird up in the head. Why remains so uptight? Most people take it as a joke, but if someone really practice Cullenism, it's his/her choice. You can't go around dictating how others should behave.
And don't go around saying you have the right to speak what you want. Yes, you can do that, but this is a private website that supports twilight saga. Don't come in here saying how twilight stinks or anything. Go create your own website if you want.
Gah! I'm so worked up over this and for what? So righteous...
Finally, I'm trying to become someone else in the virtual world. I'm not having much luck so far. There are times I'm breaking out of the shell, but others, I'm still myself.
The virtual world is where I want to be different. I want to be unafraid of people's opinions. But I can't. It hurts when people commented on what your alias is doing. Not that people are hostile and mean, I'm thinking it's I who is hostile. Or at least, not partaking in the activities. Besides, most of them are "friends" with each other. And I feel kind of "out'.
I'll try my best to rid myself of unnecessary burdens. It's bringing me down. I shall enjoy the time while it lasts.
