If I could bring myself to use all the swear words out there, I would.
I am tired; tired enough to want to end it all. I go to bed each night wishing I never wake up and when I did wake up, I only feel dread for the day.
If I can turn back time, I would have done things differently. At the very least, I would have taken some time off for myself to grieve and overcome my "retrenchment". I would have signed up for the 6 months Skillsfuture course to feel useful. I would not have rushed into this shitty job that doesn't even pay well. I guessed I was blindsided.
This is a shit fest. I feel like an utter loser at aged 30. I didn't even accomplish anything worth mentioning. I have forgotten what it's like to be happy. I swear to god I will quit this job someday next year. Yet, I don't know what else I want to do.
