The Good & Bad of 2011

I can hardly believe that 2011 is ending! Hold your horses though, because I intend to make good use of the last day of 2011.

Year 2011 is a year full of ups and downs, personally, locally and internationally.

For me, I graduated with a Diploma with Merit and an award for the Kingsmen Creatives Prize. That was the glory of my life, my pride and joy. I was at the top of the world. Then, came the task of choosing a University. I fretted over whether I am good enough to enter a local University and thought that I lost my chance. In the end, I chose NUS and am planning to major in Geography.

I wouldn't say that 2011 is good to me because it isn't. The year seems to hover between good and bad, besides, I am not entirely pleased with myself and the way things are heading. Indeed, I would say that the earlier half of the year was so much better than the later half.

If there is one regret I have for 2011, it is that I failed to fulfil my goal and dream of going to USA. All these years, I worked so hard and am going to reward myself with a bang but yet, it failed to materialise. That goal is still standing. I can only hope that I can fulfil it sooner not later.

In Singapore, this is nerve-wracking year. Toes are trod-on and fingers are pointed at. We witnessed the watershed General Election and Presidential Election. I finally realised that Singapore is not what I thought it to be. I thought that people will be more grateful and thankful for we have, alas, that was not the case. People, especially, the younger generation, have grown contemptuous and cynical. They have grown "fat" from all the coddling and protection.

2011 is a year full of disasters that one can almost say it's a disastrous year. Not only are there earthquakes, floods and tsunamis with thousands of lives lost, there is also the financial crisis that sent countries into debt and the stock markets a-tumbling. The powerhouses of the world are not so powerful after all.

The technological world lost a visionary, Steve Jobs, who redefines technology. The world, too, lost dictators such as Gaddafi and Kim Jong Il.

All in all, it's been a roller-coaster ride of a year. However, I will still miss it simply because the year is gone. The new year ahead seems daunting and tough, for the world economy and for myself. Not to mention, the supposedly end-of-the-world will arrive. I will be entering into my second semester of studies and I have to grit my teeth to bear with it.

For all the pessimism I show, I still have hopes that 2012 will be wonderful as it can be. Besides, the year 2012 is made better already with the thoughts of Sherlock season 2 in January and The Hobbit in December starring both Benedict Cumberbatch and Martin Freeman in both shows. Oh, it's Christmas!

BBC Sherlock: A Review

This holiday, I am in love. It's not very often I find myself in love with something. Perhaps, rather than calling it love, I should called it 'passion' or a worse word, 'obsession'.

I love Harry Potter (the book series and the movies), Lord of the Rings (the book series and the movies), Twilight (the book series, not so much the movies), and a couple of less epic book series and movies.

Fanfiction has play an important role all these years, I started out with good old Harry Potter fics of course. After which, I branched out. I must count my good fortune that I am exposed to so many wonderful and inspiring fanfiction. It kind of binds the world together, don't you think?  All these great writers, not professionals, but still manage to spellbind so many readers, drawing in reviews, be it good or bad.

My latest "obsession" is Sherlock from BBC One. The British really does amazing films. In this area, I would like to bring out the phrase, "quality not quantity". The mini series consists of only three 90-minutes episodes, but it has already won the BAFTA Awards that very year it came out. The series is critically-acclaimed and at the same time, well-received by the general public. There is always a line between what critics like and what the public like but it looks like Sherlock struck gold.

I know that it was released in England in August 2010 but I got wind of it only in the early months of this year.

Indeed, just after the first episode, I can't help but to get drawn into the 21st century reboot of the beloved series by Sir Arthur Conan Doyle. Sherlock is so witty and sarcastic, filled with British humour. It is ingenious, cleverly executed and a fast-paced, intelligent and fun series. Sherlock is like a breath of fresh air and it actually allows the viewer to think things through. I often find myself rewinding to truly understand the deductions. I enjoyed it tremendously.

What adds fuel to the fire is the fact that the Sherlock Holmes and John Watson are played by two good-looking, British actors namely, Benedict Cumberbatch and Martin Freeman. Supporting cast are up on par as well. I guess this is where the main appeal lies.

Audience do appreciate good-lookers in films, I can firmly attested to that. Of course, that doesn't mean I only watch shows with good-looking guys but it does affect one's decision, doesn't it?

I quickly moved on to the world of BBC!Sherlock fanfiction and found out just how big this fandom truly is. It has only been slightly more than a year old!

With series 2 coming up in the January 2012, the BBC!Sherlock fandom looks set to expand and grow to new heights. While I am excited over the prospect of the new series, I am thrilled by the thought of new fanfics that will be inspired by the new season. I simply cannot wait for the new and existing authors to contribute and share their work with the rest of the fandom.

Let it not be said that viewers these days only appreciate the TV adaptations and fanon writings. I read a wide spectrum of works, ranging from literary writings to novels to amatuers' fanfiction.

I do take the steps to read up on the history of the original author and the book series.I have done it for Harry Potter and Lord of the Rings. Not only did I read the Lord of the Rings trilogy, I also dabbled in Tolkien's other works such as The Silmarillion and previously unpublished commentary in The History of Middle Earth. I was 14 going on 15 at that time.

For Harry Potter, other than the the 7 books, I too read literary, analytical works such as Looking for God in Harry Potter and The End of Harry Potter.

As for my new interest in Sherlock Holmes, well, for the first time, I picked up Sir Arthur Conan Doyle's work. It's certainly baffling why I didn't have the interest in it when I was younger. The thought of reading this worldwide renowned series never did cross my mind. Perhaps, it's because I was never into the mystery and crime genre.

As I grow older, the time I can devote myself to novels and books lessen. These days, I mostly read fanfiction on the Internet.

Small Miracles

There's so much to update before the year comes to an end. Hopefully, my muse will allow me to write in this last few days.

I'd received my grades for Semester 1 and I must say, thank god for small miracles! For Social Work, I got an A-, the best grade I've received so far. The others are just B-, B and B+. It's alright though, because there's nothing wrong with being average, particularly in these trying times.

I have come to realise that I should lower my expectations in this part of my academic life and it doesn't help that University isn't really my cup of tea. Oh well, like I said, I am fine as long as I do not fall below the B- mark. That is one big no-no for me.

Brain Mush

My brains is becoming mush after the sudden switch in activities. For a couple of weeks, I was preparing exams like crazy, using lots of mind power and then, when the exams ended, it was like the button inside my head was in a switch-off mode.

Of course, I took fully advantage in "wasting" my time because when else will I get the chance?

I realised I have been neglecting my blog this year and I am not exactly satisfied with myself and the way everything is going. Sigh, maybe I am just not in the mood for anything. Maybe, I am jaded about Life in general. Seriously, even Christmas seems "off" this year. I can't really feel any excitement or the spirit I have been looking forward to. Maybe, I am getting old.

Another year is about to come to a close and like every past year, I will lament the ending and am not looking forward to another new year. Why must all the good holidays happen within a couple of months? It makes the rest of the year so drab and dull.

Finals Are Over

My finals are finally over on Monday, 28th November and I'm planning to enjoy my one month holiday fully.

The past two weeks have been, for a lack of better word, tough. I've never feel so incompetent and not confident before. But the exams, like anything, came and went. And I can only hope that I did alright. I mean, the exams did feel alright.

I am kind of apologetic for all the grouses I made during the study week and more. I guessed I must have drove my family bonkers. Oh well, like I told them, they will have to endure for another 2 and a half years.

University is no joke and I am not amused. With the end of semester 1, I can say that I just have the worst time in my entire academic life. It has been awful and miserable.

I have chosen geography as my major. Let's hope that there will be no regrets. To have some interest in it is a good right, non?

As ready as I'll ever be

I'm as ready as I'll ever be = I don't really feel ready, but there is nothing I can do to ever feel more ready.

I've done all that I could and really hope that my hardwork will pay off.

SOS

After 13 years, you would have thought I'd wisen up. But no, humans are weird in this way. We never seem to learn, did we?

Once again, I find myself not having enough time to study and this year, it's even worse than usual. For one, it's University. Need I say more? It's really a killer and I am seriously demoralised by everything. If only I could weep and things will be fine like magic.

3 examinations in 2 days is no laughing matter and with how my brains work, I can't really cope with the influx of info. Action speaks louder than words right? I keep telling myself to work hard but somehow I didn't. I need a wake-up call and what better than one in the form of bad results.

I am not giving up but rather, I am trying to lessen the shame of scoring bad grades. Everyday, I give myself a prep-talk, I have to condition my mind in accepting what will be less-than-stellar grades. I keep telling myself that it's alright for this is the first time. I try to lessen the burden I will otherwise face.

All I am asking for are B- for all subjects. I can't fail. I can't get C or D. I really cannot afford that.

I've never had such hard-core examinations since the O levels. On one hand, I feel sorry for myself. On the other, I know that I am the one who put myself in such a spot.

Once every thousand years

So, today is a very special day because it can only happen once every thousand years. Today's 11th November 2011 or rather 11-11-11.

There's nothing special for me except that it was my last day of school for the first semester. All that's left are final exams and then I can take a well deserved break.

My first semester wasn't what I expected at all. Let's just say it was a big shock and I wasn't entirely happy.

High Stakes

The stakes are stacked high against me. I'm feeling rather blue and depressed these days. I can't help but to have all these unsavory thoughts running through my head. What if I didn't make it? What if I fail? What if I can't find a good job? What if I got left behind by society? Goodness, one will wonder what I am thinking.

Sometimes, I despaired how much reliance I put in place to hold myself together. I don't see the need to hide the fact that my main purpose in going to a Uni is to get that degree to give myself greater opportunities in life. Doors will be easier to open, you know?

I don't want to change the world, I just want to change my life.

By now, I have realised how the minority is marginalised and dare I say, discriminated? This is my first time getting that feeling. Those lecturers seem to forget that not everyone is from JC and have the background knowledge for the subjects. I have never done an essay since forever and what am I going to do for the exams, huh?

I hate it. I think this is part of the reason why my confidence levels fall to an all-time low. I have to be content with being an average student in Uni. Sometimes, life just suck. And when Life gives you lemons, what do I do then?

Failure to Thrive

It's almost the end of my first semester in the University and the one thing that I dread most is looming on the horizon - finals.

I've never face such uncertainty till now. For some reason, I don't think I am doing all that well in Uni. Could it be that my luck has run out or that I have reached my limits in terms of education? Could it be that "inferiority complex" is dragging me down or that I've too high expectations?

I feel like I am struggling to stay afloat all this while. Maybe I am too harsh on myself. Maybe all these negativity is getting me down.

Perhaps my years in Poly had 'spoilt' me, afterall I was considered to be a better-than-average student then. Polytechnic was the pinnacle of my education, it was my most successful and the most rewarding. Maybe after all that high, things will be difficult to match up.

I wasn't kidding when I said that a failure will seriously damaged my morale and confidence. And I did just that - failing my Economics mid-sem test. I never fail since Secondary 4!

The Lion King musical

I'm really glad that I'm able to catch one of the last few shows of The Lion King at Marina Bay Sands. I've always wanted to go, and now that it is leaving Singapore, there is no time to waste.

My uncle helped to book the tickets and with a group rate, the tickets for C reserve were cheaper. We ate dinner at Rasapura and I must say, the IR still impressed me.

It was a sell-out show with lots of kids and parents turning up. There were also school children in their uniforms turning up in classes. A single ticket costs quite a lot and they certainly have the means to do so. Perhaps, their school did sponsor them?

With good sense, we checked out the theatre shop before the show because it will be teaming with people when the show is over. I bought a pin which has the lion king logo on it and the event booklet which costs S$15.

It is a captivating show and the costumes are simply stunning! The songs are sung powerfully and the score with its African origins haunting. The portrayal of the animals are quite realistic. The lion masks were extremely detailed and beautifully hand-crafted.

The Lion King defines theatre and I think many people will be surprised that plays can be as good as films.

This is a showcase of what theatre can be: taking an epic tale and adapting it onto the stage. Theatre has that certain charm and "human touch" that films do not have. Knowing that there is only one chance to make it right and getting a standing ovation, it is not something you can get from a film.

During the 2 and 1/2 hours show, the theatre was transformed into the African plains with leaping antelopes, stately giraffes, and sleek leopard. The stage exploded into a myriad of colours and it is certainly a feast for the eyes. The backdrops are magnificent and lighting and music ties everything together nicely.

I'm happy that my parents got a chance to watch it as well, after much cajoling from us. Seize the day, that's how the saying goes. Who knows when will the broadway show be in Singapore again?

Viva La Liberte

I'm free! Well, not really. But this is as close as it gets.

I'm done with the social work project which I have been ranting about for days. I'm done with the presentation as well which is miles apart from what I used to do in Poly.

I don't do last minute work. Therefore, I cannot stand it when some people came along and change my views. I'm ashamed by my own actions, you know? I've done quite a lot so why is it I'm feeling guilty? Is it because I slept when the others were doing till the wee morning? But, I have done my fair share of work.

It's definitely a culture shock. I promise myself I will never do anything like this again.

I'm left with one last project for economics and then it's time for the examinations. It's going to be another headache and heartache.

Crunch Time

When Life gives you lemons, what will you do? Will you make lemonade? Or will you throw the lemons back?

Once again, it's that time of the school term where things get piled up and you have to do whatever it takes to clear them. It's crunch time.

There's a ball of sunshine waiting for me on the other side, but I have to cross the hurdles first. I have to get over the painful parts before getting the reward. Gosh, the phrase "so near yet so far" has never been more true than this.

Next week is the worst of the lot. On Monday, I've to hand up Social Work reflection paper. On Tuesday, it's History essay. On Friday, I've a term test for South Asian Studies which is drab. The following Monday, there's Social Work group project to be handed up.

Out of the four, the ones I'm most worried about is the group project because we have not FREAKING started! I'm wondering if I associate myself with the wrong group. I thought they are pretty OK people, but last minute work is not my cup of tea.

There is barely a week left, oh god.

Mid-semester Tests

I am woefully behind in updating since the weeks have been hectic.

I did my first ever mid-semester test in the University on 3rd October, and even though I really put in a lot of effort, the difficulty of the paper killed me.

I got stuck doing MCQs and when I realised I spent too much time on that, I quickly jumped to the short-answer questions. I was slowly doing question 1 and when it was announced that there were only 15 minutes left, I panicked and the rest was history.

My mind went blank and I literally feel cold sweat breaking out. I have never ever experience such a thing before. I scribbled what I can and did the few MCQs left without much thinking. I will be lucky if I pass, that is how bad it is.

I didn't have much time to study for history test which took place the next day. However, I feel that I have done quite alright. We'll see when the results are back. There must be at least one test where I have to do well. If not, it's a double-whammy to my self.

In the Thick of Things

The weeks just past in a blur. It's week 6 now and what have I done? The nightmare has began when I saw all the due dates and the amount of projects I have to do. It's time to get into the thick of things.

I'm really not adapting well into University. Contrary to popular belief, I'm not a "model" student. I never was and never will be. I hate to use the word, but I procrastinate too much. 'Tomorrow' is such a beautiful word. But, I can't stand last-minute work too.

I miss TP very much as well as my former group members. I miss the group meetings we had and the hours of discussions about business matters. If there is one thing I got out of University, it is that I finally know what I like.

I like the business viewpoint and how different companies use strategies to grow. I like the practicability of the business world. Above all, I miss the business projects in my entrepreneurship classes.

So then, the question is, did I regret taking Arts and Social Sciences? Perhaps regret is too harsh a word, although sometimes, I find myself questioning my choice. Ultimately, it's my choice.

I don't know if choosing Business Administration at SMU will mean that I will be happier because at that time, I feel jaded about continuing with business. I mean, I hate to go through Organisation Behaviour and Marketing all over again.

Ten Years On

A decade since the 9/11 attack in New York, USA. It was an event that changed the world and how terrorism had been such a direct hit to humanity.

A decade and the world isn't an easier place to live in.

So much had happen and yet nothing seem to have change. The world is facing an uphill task to combat terrorism and extremists. There is nothing more critical than the situation the world is facing now, what with the financial crisis and battle against terror groups.

I remembered I was in Primary 4 when the news first broke out. Like so many others, I watched in utmost shock at the captured scenes where the hijacked planes crashed into the twin towers and the subsequent collapses. It seemed like a bad dream then.

10 years on, I am Year 1 in University. The heartbreak of those who lost their love ones are still keen in their hearts and minds.

We should all take this special day to commemorate and remember those who lost their lives and sacrificed. It was a day of memorial.

Letting Go

Darn it. I've got to learn how to let go. I have to realise I can't get everything I want and that not everything has to go my way.

Why then is it so hard for me to do that? Hey, if there are people better than me, I've no problem letting them take charge. The problem arises when I know that I'm right and I have better ideas. My stakes are high and that's why I must make sure things are on the right track. It's hard to take a step back and look at the issue without a critical eye.

For some reason, some of the slogans that a group member suggests get on me. Having study tourism before and did projects on it, I have to say I have greater experience and knowledge on the topic. Afterall, my former group was steered to great results.

We'll see about this issue tomorrow. Hopefully, the group can choose something great and broad based. I hate to be the "bad guy".

Perhaps, there are times when I'll have to condescend. Sighs, this is not the way I want to do things but group work is all about give and take.

I miss my Poly project group more than ever when I see the depressing way I go about tackling projects at University. I don't know the different people well enough to have the right dynamics.

Week 5

So, it's week 5 since the start of University. Time sure pass by, but I still feel like it's only the beginning.

I feel like a zombie sometimes, just going through the paces. I don't know what is wrong but I don't feel like I am adapting as well as I should.

I miss the days where group project members are your friends as well and there are plenty of chances to have lunch and trade ideas together. Here, in University, group project members are merely acquaintances, whereby you meet a couple of times to get whatever projects done up. It's all for mutual benefit.

Tutorials are kind of drab. In Poly, one see the tutor once a week and the tutor are friendly as in you can always consult them. In University, there are classes where you see the tutor once a fortnight and it's very touch-and-go. It gives the feeling that you just can't wait for it to end.

Maybe I am jaded about school but I'll give in my best to make this work.

Best Man Wins

It was not until the wee hours of Sunday's morning that the results of the Presidential Elections were out and it was because there was a recount of votes. Indeed, it was a close-fight between Dr Tony Tan and Dr Tan Cheng Bock. Ultimately, Dr Tony Tan is Singapore's new President.

It was a close call but thank goodness for small wonders. Sensibility won by a small percentage.

After all the fuss, I'm glad that we'll have relative peace for the next 6 years. I have enough of the personal attacks and undermining of the ruling party efforts.

This is the upward trend that is going to afflict Singapore for years to come: more and more people voting for the opposition and those affiliated with them. There is no stopping this wave. There is and will be increasing fragmentation in the society where the line is draw between 2 camps; supporters of the ruling party and those who are not.

I can't help but feel that as Singapore and the world progresses, humanity is lost. The world according to some people consists of themselves and their houses. They can only see how can this and that benefit me, how can my self-interest be met.

What I want my President To Be

I want the President of Singapore to be a person with experience, dignity and ability to represent Singapore on the world stage. He must be a person who can hold his own in front of foreign dignitaries and head-of-states. He have to be Singapore's top diplomat.

I can hardly care for the "incentives" the candidates promise to bring to the people because how true that will be, no one knows. Let's be honest, where will he get the money to provide additional incentives to NS men and the lot? Out of his own pocket? Besides, how long do you think he can carry out this? One year, or maybe two?

These ideas are short-sighted and the people who vote because they can only see the benefits and care for their self-interests are completely irrational. Is that the kind of president they want? One who promises them "goodies" and an "alternate voice"?

It's disappointing that despite continuous emphasis on the role and duties of the president, there are people who just cannot look past their prejudices and tinted glasses. Their dislike for the ruling party spilled over to that of presidential elections.

On another note, is the ruling party of Singapore that bad? With the way things are going, you'd think that the party has done a great deal of injustice to Singaporeans.

If these people are really that disappointed with the system here, they ought to be shipped to Libya, where they can experience "true political injustice" and political unrest.

Furthermore, they are an ungrateful lot, I must say. Reaping in the benefits and yet pointing fingers when things are not up to their liking. The ruling party is not perfect, but they have done Singapore proud. They have provide accountability to the citizens all these years.

That being said, I am not confusing the role of the president with that of the Parliament or the ruling party. I am merely making things clear.

Surviving University

University is not all it's cracked up to be. It's stressful and full of apprehension. My main goal is to survive and do well and graduate with a degree. The other things are just secondary.

I know why they say University life is lonely and it's true that you won't have deep friendships. Everyone is rushing to their own classes and lectures and to put in unkind term, for self benefits. It's almost like "making use" of people for that one module.

Oh well, my main concern is whether I can survive these uncharted waters that is the first semester. It's crucial to do well because it will give me the confidence I need to endure the next 5 semesters. On the other hand, it will crush me if I fail to do well and meet my expectations.

I'm not even thinking honours right now because it all depends on how I do and how well I can adjust to University life. I'll cross the bridge when the time comes.

Confidence for the Future?

It's not whether I have confidence for the future, it's I have no confidence in the people of Singapore. With recent happenings, one have to wonder if our values is starting to erode and deteriorate.

Presidential elections will be here on the 27th of August.

I have this thought that since the President of Singapore is supposed to be just and above the parliment that maybe, there will be not be that much protest about whether he was formerly part of the ruling party. But, I was wrong. Some people are still narrow-minded, short-sighted and hard-headed.

Despite re-emphasising on the role of the President, people and even some Presidential candidates seem not to get the gist of it. Maybe, they seek to change the system or play up citizens' feelings and expectations?

The President of Singapore is mostly a figurehead, I would have thought that is established by now. To put it bluntly, he will be a "puppet". The Prime Minister has the power of the government, whether you like it or not.

Don't make empty promises like promising to change this and that and raise expectations. Is this considered misleading? I know that some citizens are fired up by the thoughts of bringing changes but they are going to be disappointed.

Time and again, various parties have stated that 'keeping an eye' on the government is the opposition party's job, not that of a President.

Past and recent examples show that 'thinking of doing something' is almost always not the same of doing it. For example, one can say he will cut taxes but in reality, he will find that it's easier said than done.

Besides, one of the main duty of a president is to be a diplomat. He will be the one whom other head of states will meet.Needless to say, there has to be a certain bearing and demeanour in the way the President conduct himself to be a representation of Singapore. The way one speaks and carries himself will reflect on the image of Singapore. And let's be honest, first impressions do count.

I like the way an editor puts it, don't hide under the axiom "Let Singaporeans decide".

Not Rocket Science

Social work as a module is not my cup of tea.

First of all, I'm not exactly a person who is able to relate to people's problems easily. Empathy and compassion are not my strong points. I'm not a touchy-feely kind of person. I'm not comfortable working with people, period.

I'm an introvert who value privacy and me time. Asking me to delve deep into others' problems makes me uncomfortable and gives me creeps. I don't like people prying into my business and vice versa.

When a classmate cried for some reason in the past, while others would surge forward to comfort her, I would hang back, because I believe that the real comfort is to cry in peace and not have a group of people crowding into your space. It just makes you feel more rotten. That's my way of thinking anyway. There's no wrong or right, right?

A social worker encompasses everything I'm not. I don't know how to approach a problem and lend a comfort hand. I can 'hmmm' and 'ahhh' at the right time, that's all.

Anyway, I only choose this module because I need to fulfil the requirements and there aren't many choices left to choose from. It's a simple reason and it's not rocket science. I'm not "changing the world" or "making thr world a better place".

Anti-climatic

Yesterday was the second day back to school, or more appropriately, University. I would say it's quite anti-climatic. With all hype surrounding University, I had thought that things will be a little more "exciting" but no, it's just normal.

Perhaps, I will worry again when the tutorials start proper. Afterall, projects are a big deal and I am really scared that I will end up with less-than stellar group members.

A friend told me that University can be lonely and I can see why. There is no fixed class, therefore, a friend for this tutorial does not mean she will be there for the other tutorial. We are all drifting souls, going from one place to another.

I realise that since the end of Polytechnic, I have been worrying non-stop throughout the months of holidays.

First, I worried about not getting offers from Universities. Then, I worried about whether I made the right choice in not choosing SMU Business. After which, I worried about whether Arts and Social Sciences is a good choice and whether the major I intended to do would be a good track for me. Now, I have to worry about all sorts of miscellaneous stuff; group members, exams, projects, tutorials, locations for classes, printing services etc.

I admit I am a worrier and I will get wrinkles sooner or later. I've been wound too tightly for years.

First Day Jitters

You would have thought that at 20 I would have gotten over the first-day jitters. After all, I've enough experience of being a new kid in school. But no, of course not, even adults will experience butterflies in their stomachs on the first day to work.

In a way, I am glad that school term is here, again. It brings closure and I've been waiting for the axe to drop anyway.

University is pretty intimidating, isn't it? When you have to take a bus to get to the library, you know you are in it bad.

I miss my Poly! I miss the library and the facilities. I had spend many happy hours sleeping on the study tables. I miss the Business School's computer labs and its printers where we can print whatever we want. On top of everything, I miss the close proximity the school provides.

Sighs, I never thought I will be saying this but circumstances change. I do miss the tough times which bring sweet returns. I have been really lucky in Poly and I hope to be in University too.

I cannot lose my touch.

Green Fields

Yesterday was fun even though we didn't get to go out much.

First, we went to Eight Courtyards showflat.

The whole estate is really appealing to the senses and it's the epitome of the new concept of wellness living. There are more facilities than the usual gym and swimming pool. I assume there won't be a problem with parking lots as well because there will be a multi-storey carpark in addition to an underground carpark. How cool is there?

Of course, I am not delusional enough to think that we'll get to buy a condominium. Besides, I love where I'm staying now, with the extra big living room and bedrooms (as compared to mickey-mouse houses these days). It's all for good fun and I do enjoy the aesthetics and the deco of the showrooms.

After which, it's time to take photographs of the soon-to-be-gone fields and forested areas of Yishun. It hurts me to think that in a few years time, all these lovely greenery will be gone. Somethings need to be sacrifice for development. I just wish that they will slow in down.

NDP 2011

Happy 46th Birthday, Singapore!

Another year, another National Day Parade gone by.

With the new Marina Bay Sands and the Art Science Museum fully constructed, the skyline of Singapore is finally completed and whole. This is the first year where spectators are treated with this beautiful view.

I spent this day watching the parade at home as usual. Next year, I plan to book a room at Marina Bay Sands to celebrate. Let's hope it will come true. I also plan to ballot for the much coveted tickets.

Watching the parade evoke a sense of pride in me and I can't help but get tear-eyed as I took in the sights that Singapore has to offer. Truly, we have come a long way and it is my wish that Singapore will be always on the rise for the better.

Passe

Seeing all those students in their red and white apparel today makes me feel nostalgic and a little bit old.

This is no longer my era. It's considered passe for me. I've grown up and on to better things. Perhaps, that's why I always feel like I'm missing out. I can't let go of the past. I look back and see the good old days.

Displeasure

Blah, it is no wonder that people find Singapore "stifling", because I find it drab too. I can hardly swallow my displeasure over that problem, you-know-what. That sore spot that got me everytime.

Seriously, there are times when I tried not to think about it, but still, sighs.

I suppose there will be enough chances in the future, but what if I don't want it to be in the future? What if I want it to be now, before that passion and spontaneity is gone?

Uncertainty

University seriously stresses me out.

I'm worried that I don't have the confidence and skills to conquer University. I'm just a very ordinary, average kind of person. Reading all those reviews about the modules and having to have strong writing skills make me did a double-take. Do I have what it takes to ride through this storm?

There are times when I like to think that my English is not that bad, I did editing for projects during the Polytechnic years and hey, they were pretty good.

Perhaps all these uncertainty and anxiety will pass once I start classes proper and know what to expect.

It's just like Polytechnic all over again, I freaked out pre-poly too. Looking at all those modules and credits, I didn't know how in the world I will do it right. But, I did well and that's all that matters.

University is a big deal, isn' it? It either make or break you, in certain circumstances. Afterall, what are the odds that you will make it big without a proper education? I know the chance is out there, but I am practical and this is a practical country.

Uncharted Waters

Am I ready for University? The answer is no. I am freaking out over it. It’s happening too fast and it’s too real.

Perhaps the thought of it being no child’s play makes me so jittery. Perhaps the thought of not doing well turns me off.

The local University scene is notorious for being “too high standard” for Polytechnic graduates. Parents and students have been lamenting for years how it is unfair to them and how they have to seek out overseas Universities.

I know they said it is tougher for Poly graduates and I am worried about that.
I get into one by my sheer hard work. I am proud of the fact and yes, I surprise myself. But now the real challenge begins.

It’s one thing to get accepted and another to graduate with a degree, nevermind honours. So can you blame me for not wanting to make sure my roll continues? It isn’t easy to get in and it isn’t easy to maintain. I don’t want to be labelled as that “University dropout”.

As the last days of holidays bring me closer to reality, there is a battle of 3-4 years in front of me. It’s uncharted waters ahead, and my standards for myself and the aspirations from relatives and family stress me out.

My most primal fear is fear itself. There I said it. I am afraid of not adapting well. I am afraid I make the wrong choice. I am afraid of having regrets because I choose this path. Even if I do regrets, I have no one to blame but me.

I am afraid of hitting road blocks and too-high hurdles. I am afraid of examinations. I am afraid of not doing well enough. I am afraid of failing myself. I am afraid of having to work with not good groupmates. I am afraid of finding a job afterwards.

I worry too much but how can I not? I am lucky in Polytechnic and I can only hope that I will be blessed in University.

I am messed up.

Magic In Numbers

The last instalment of Harry Potter has break some pretty records and "accio-ed" in some impressive amounts. Here's a breakdown of the magical numbers, credit to Mugglenet.com

In terms of advanced ticket sales, Deathly Hallows Part 2 managed to pull in US$32 million.

The film holds the top midnight box-office record of US$43.5 million,  previously held by 2010 The Twilight Saga: Eclipse at $30 million.

On the Opening Day, Deathly Hallows Part 2 made US$92.1 million in the States, $20 million more than the previous record holder, The Twilight Saga: New Moon.

More impressively, Deathly Hallows Part 2 took in more money than 4 of the previous seven Harry Potter films did over their entire opening weekends, in a single day!

It also has the honour of being top opening weekend film of all time in the States, bringing in an estimate of US$169 million, a comfortable distance from the previous record holder The Dark Knight's US$158 million.

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2 finished the opening weekend making US$475.5 million worldwide.

By July 20th, it has crossed the half a billion dollars mark, upping the total to US$604.8 million worldwide.

The Harry Potter movie franchise have accumulated $2.223 billion, compared to $2.218 billion for Star Wars franchise, becoming the top grossing movie franchise of all time.

To project it domestically, in Singapore, Deathly Hallows Part 2 earned $3 million for the opening weekend. No bad for a contribution.

This is the power of the fans. This is what I call magic.

-Statistics credited to BoxOfficeMojo-

Voyage de la Vie

On 14th July 2011, the whole family went to watch Voyage de la Vie at Resort World Sentosa.

One ticket originally cost S$100+ but because my uncle's colleague had some special deal, it only cost S$20+. Our seats were the second best from the house, just 3 rows away from the stage!

It's thanks to such deals that we get to watch this kind of theatrical shows. Can you imagine us paying the full price as a family?

It was quite amazing actually. It has a Cirque du Soleil feel to it, except this is smaller in scale. The storyline is pretty simple as the main course is the effects and stunts. I particularly like the one with the crossbow and arrows.

Now, my wish is to watch Lion King at Marina Bay Sands. Truth be told, Lion King appeals to me more than this.  

That afternoon, after my Qualifying English Test at NUS, I went to watch Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2 by myself. That was my first time watching a movie alone and I must say, the only bad thing about it is there is no one to discuss with after the movie.

As for the test, well, I think I did alright. Hopefully, I can pass without having to take up any English modules. Fingers crossed.

After: The End of Harry Potter

I last read The End of Harry Potter? by David Langford back in 2007, before Deathly Hallows came out.

Reading the book 4 years later, when the end is really here, brings back fond memories and a whole new perspective.

This book made an impression on me because it is highly entertaining and the author speculates what would happen in the final book by J.K. Rowling. Like I said, reading it before and after brings a fresh outlook as to how you see things.

He made many clever guesses and speculations about which side Snape is on, whether Dumbledore is really dead and who will die in the battle. With his deep research, he wonders if there is a part of Voldemort's soul in Harry's body, which is very insightful, I might say, as we all know how it goes.

I particularly like the various tongue-in-cheek alternative endings he had, such as the merging of J.R.R Tolkien's Lord of the Rings with Harry Potter, Harry Potter and Stars Wars, and of course, Parseltongue.

He still made me laugh after all this years.

Second Thoughts

The IMAX experience at Shaw Lido is super cool! The screen is really big and you can really feel like you are in the movie. I'm glad our seats are quite near to the centre but wish that we could have sit further back. It does get a bit disorientating to concentrate when the screen is that big.

Second time watching Deathly Hallows Part 2 and I still cried at the same scenes. I just can't help my tears.

The first half of the film is more true to the book than the later half, I can conclude that now. The Gringotts break-in and escape are very enjoyable. But when the trio reached Hogsmeade, that's when things start to speed up and get all mix up.

How does Ollivander know about the Deathly Hallows at all? Most people don't even heard of them. He only knows that the Elder Wand exists but not that it is one of the Hallows.

I feel that the whole battle is altogether too rushed.

Harry shouldn't have come out to challenge Snape like that. Like I say before, students should have been send to safety with those opting to fight staying on. The Order of the Phoenix should not arrive at that timing! It's really too fast-pace.

The idea of Harry not hiding from everyone didn't sit well with me. He is in plain sight when he wasn't suppose to let people know.

Why wasn't Hagrid sad that Harry has been killed? He should be in grief or at least, sniffling when Narcissa announced that Harry was dead. A bit of emotion would set the morbid scene right.

Why was Voldemort hugging Draco? That's an awkward scene. Like what a fan said "Voldemort doesn't hug people!"

Bellatrix and Voldemort getting blown to pieces is funny and unncessary. They should just drop to the floor and die.

Why didn't anyone cheer when Harry killed Voldemort?! The boy-who-lived just finished off You-Know-Who, for Merlin's sake! You would have thought that people would be a little more grateful and happy about that. That scene wouldn't even need lines, just cheering, whooping and hugging Harry.

The scene where Harry broke the Elder Wand still irritates me. So what now, he is going to use Draco's wand forever?

Now, I know I nit-pick a lot, I practically break apart the whole movie. I can take heart that many fans did so too. We want to see what we read in the book, that's all. It's that simple.

Despite all my complaints, I still think this is one of the better movies in this franchise.

I just feel, like so many other fans, that this last instalment could be better, longer and more detailed. I heard that critics generally like it but haven't you notice, critics do not represent the fan-base. Our opinion always contradict with theirs and I mean, always. To each his own, anyway.

The fandom is the one bringing in the money that guarantee the success of the franchise. In layman terms, the fandom is the money-tree. Who else would go for a movie multiple times?

It have the potential to be the best film in the series, but somehow the crew ruined that chance.

Purist

I'm what they call a book purist, a loyal and firm supporter of the beloved book series. I am quite a nit-picker because I just want to see the original gets translated onto the big screen.

As I read some of the reviews by Harry Potter fans, I take comfort that I'm not alone. There are tons of like-minded people out there!

I find myself nodding in agreement and crowing in delight when fans pointed out those plot holes, inane changes and unforgivable mistakes the franchise has made. My sentiments exactly!

I cannot get over the fact that Harry didn't repair his wand with the Elder wand or return it to Dumbledore's grave. I mean, what's what with that?!

I know that the books will always triumph over the movies and that these are only movies adaptations, hardly screenplays, but as a dedicated fan, I would like to see more effort being put in.

I know we should be grateful and thankful that the book-to-movie adaptations are still better than average and that we should love the two as separate entities.

Oh well, I can't help but feel a little bit disappointed that it wasn't the epic film that it has the potential to be.

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2 movie review

Edited: 18th July

Cinematography (making of lighting and camera choices): 
 

Darker saturation for the whole movie gives it a raw feel and sets the emotions of the film nicely.

I do like the close-ups of some of the characters such as showing Harry’s eyes at the scene when Snape is dying.

Acting:

The cast has outdone themselves in this finale, the acting is the best of all the films and supporting cast members like Matthew Lewis is exceptionally great as Neville.

Daniel Radcliffe is wonderful as Harry. Like I said before in the previous film, he does not sound and act so wooden anymore.

Emma Watson is still amazing as Hermione after all these years.

Rupert Grint surpasses himself. He is still the likeable person who gets the funny lines. It provides some light-hearted moments to the otherwise depressed atmosphere.

Although Tom Felton does not get many lines in this film, as usual, his facial emotions are wonderfully down to a tee.

Draco Malfoy is the reluctant villain, forced to commit deeds he did not want as a means to protect his family and status. Actually, I would think of him as very human. In circumstance of fight or flight, I think that there are many of us who would choose ‘flight’. After all, we all can’t be heroes. I’m glad he has his own happy ending in the end.

Alan Rickman deserves an award for the rousing performance! He shows the most emotions in this last film as compared to all the other films put together. Fans and non-readers finally get to see the man behind the mask. In the last 7 movies, he is always portrayed as the man with the blank mask, the one with poker face. In here, we see how he wept over Lily’s body at Godric’s Hallow. We see how he pleaded with Dumbledore to keep Lily and her family safe. We see how he fooled everyone, including Voldemort.

The dying scene is very emotional as he was struck so many times by Nagini. I would think one time would be more than enough! As he looked at Harry’s eyes for the final time, he saw Lily in them and with a dying “Look at me”, the double agent is dead. My tears just leaked out, as I did with the book.

Julie Walters is the formidable Molly Weasley who finally revealed her darker side in the duel with Bellatrix. She delivers the most anticipated line “Not my daughter, you b****” with relish and malice and it certainly did not disappoint. Fans heaved a sigh of relief when it was revealed that this line would not get cut out.

Dame Maggie Smith as Professor McGonagall is terrific. I would give her performance a standing ovation if possible. She showed that she cared for her students and above all, Harry Potter. I love the scenes where she challenged Snape to a battle and transfiguring the stone statues to secure Hogwarts. Gods, the scene is so powerful.

Ralph Fiennes as Voldemort is pure evil and it just shows how make-up can totally transform a person. I did smile when Voldemort’s bald head was sullied and dirtied after the wrestle with Harry.

Helena Bonham Carter gets a break from acting the absolutely crazed Bellatrix. Playing Hermione becoming Bellatrix is one of the most enoyable scenes in this movie. She really did capture the uncertainty and nervousness of Hermione in disguise.

Benedict Clarke as young Severus Snape is great. I really like how he looked when he’s with Lily in his childhood. We can see he is truly happy then.

Did we even see Teddy in the film? .

Ryan Turner (Hugo Weasley), Bertie Gilbert (Scorpius Malfoy) and Arthur Bowen (Albus Severus Potter) are the three cutest boys ever! It’s just too bad for me that only Scorpius’ back is shown in the movie.

Special Effects:

I love the stunning visuals and mind-blowing effects such as the dragon escapade and marching of the stone statues, especially in IMAX 3D. The dragon's face is literally in your face!

Plotline:

As much as everything is taken into account, the book-to-movie adaption is not that bad as compared to others.

Despite the changes and cuts, I don’t feel like I am watching a different story altogether and that to a fan, is extremely important.

My favourite scenes?

The beginning with Voldemort getting the Elder Wand is a good place to begin part 2 as it provides a recap to Part 1. 

A scene is shown in passing of Snape as Headmaster of Hogwarts and Dementors guarding the school with students treated as prisoners.

The scene shifts to Dobby’s grave at Shell Cottage. I thought the scene with Griphook and Ollivander was well performed but it could have been longer. Hermione becoming Bellatrix, as discussed above, is extremely well done.

I love the ambience in Gringotts as the trio and Griphook broke into it. The ride down the bank’s underground is extraordinary fun yet heart-thumping. I can see those developers at the Wizarding World turning it into a rollercoaster ride of sorts. I like the twists and turns and the Thief’s Downfall.

I love the Room of Requirement scene with Draco, Blaise and Goyle.The Fiendfyre with the fiery raptors, snakes and tigers is breathtaking and I can literally feel the exhilaration that Harry, Hermione and Ron felt as they soared across burning room.

I like how they added in the scene where Hermione and Ron went to the Chamber of Secrets to retrieve the dead Basilisk’s fangs and destroyed Hufflepuff Cup, the horcrux. It is important as this scene is only said in passing in the book. Although, I must say, Hermione and Ron’s kiss could have been better timed. They could have kissed in front of Harry with him saying “OI! There’s a war going on here.” It would have been great and hilarious moment.

The final battle is the pivotal point and the finale that everyone has been waiting for. This is the showdown between the Light and Dark, Good and Evil, Harry and Voldemort, for “neither can live while the other survives”.

The Prince’s Tale is easily one of the most emotional scenes in this film and I cried when I saw the memories. Scenes were cut down but I particularly adored the one when Snape entered the destroyed house and saw Lily dead on the floor. The part where he had her body in his arms and wept is very heart-wrenching.

Neville (Matthew Lewis) shows his potential in this film when he killed Nagini and stood up to Voldemort.

When Harry opened the snitch and had the resurrection stone in his hand, I thought to myself, oh no, here comes another tear-jerking scene. Indeed, I teared up again. Those words spoken between Lily, James, Sirius and Remus to Harry are so true to the book. “You’re so brave, sweetheart”.

I like the scene when Harry gave himself up to Voldemort.

Harry met Dumbledore in what I can only describe as Limbo. Voldemort’s soul is hideous and disgusting. And I like the ethereal-looking King’s Cross Station. Again, this is the scene where most of the plot sticks, other than the deletion of Dumbledore’s tale. It’s a bit disconcerting not to hear him apologising. My favourite quote from Dumbledore is there!

The final battle is the best of course, although too fast-pace. I wish Harry and Voldemort could have said out the spells instead. The point where Harry and Voldemort tumbled down the side of the tower is awkward though and I can’t imagine Voldemort doing physical assault to Harry. It’s just so “muggle-ish”.

Another brilliant and heart-warming scene is the epilogue. Harry, Ginny, Ron, Hermione and Draco are in their thirties with families. I love the scene whereby Harry told Albus Severus about his namesakes. That is so loyal to the book.

At first, during the days of filming, fans were a bit apprehensive of how they were going to look under prosthetics. The cast gave us the impression they were aged quite a lot and that thought was scary. Not to mention, those early pictures of them are not exactly flattering.

But I think our worries were unfounded, they do aged well and most importantly, do not changed that much.

Draco’s receding hairline isn’t that terrible as we thought it would be! Phew. Harry and Ron look dapper in their adult clothes and Hermione and Ginny look wonderful. Now, I have to squeal at the sight of the ickle next generation. They are just so cute! Trivia: Albus Severus Potter has a ferret!

Soundtrack/score:

The score by Alexandre Desplat is soulful, eerie at times and heavy at others. He captures the mood of the different scenes perfectly. Many fans who are passionate about scores of previous Harry Potter films mentioned that Nicholas Hooper and John Williams did extremely well in the scores. I have to agree with them as Half-Blood Prince and the first two films are my favourites.

Disparities:

At the Lestrange’s vault, on top of the multiplying gold, they should have added in lines regarding the burning gold – the Flagrante curse.

In the books, Voldemort cannot feel that his horcruxes are destroyed and yet, they made the big mistake of letting him know. It shouldn’t be the case because why else shouldn't Voldemort seek out Harry first.

Dumbledore’s past and backstory was completely cut out at the Hogmeade’s scene with Aberforth and at King’s Cross Station. I supposed the reason is because the producers do not want to over-complicate the already complicated plot, especially with non-readers among the audience. I guess I can understand that.

Why is Harry telling Aberforth about horcruxes? Shouldn't it be a secret?

Neville doesn’t look too surprised at seeing Harry, which is kind of weird. Why the students are staying at the Room of Requirement isn’t brought across clearly as well.

I don’t exactly enjoy the Grey Lady’s scene. It comes across as too forceful.  Why would she want to destroy the diadem? She only coveted it. How did she even know about the diadem being an evil object and all? Sighs, they could polish this scene up. True, it’s not that crucial but I would have like it to stick more to the book.

What happens to George’s missing ear? I know that it’s a tiny detail but still.

Why didn’t Professor McGonagall send the students to safety? It could have easily been delivered in a line or two. That’s not too much to ask for. Students’ safety is of utmost importance and yet, all the students are rushing here and there. Perhaps it is to create a sense of panicky feel and to make sure that enough extras are around to fight. 

Why isn't Harry's eyes green? That is the question. Since the start of the first film, fans have been questioning this.

Too many important moments from Snape's memories have been cut off, such as the teasing by James and Sirius, Snape calling Lily a Mudblood and the falling out between Snape and Lily.

The Malfoys shouldn't have left the scene like that even though I know it's not their battle. I don't know, it doesn't seem to grow on me. I know they are not really evil or bad, as they only believe what has been the norm since the beginning - pure-blood superiority.

*Groans* What have they made Harry do to the Elder Wand?! That is a big no-no! He shouldn’t have snapped it into two but rather, stick with the plot and returns it to Dumbledore’s grave after mending his old wand. Out of all the changes, this is one I hate the most.

Seriously, the epilogue could have be longer with James teasing Albus, Ron telling Rose to beat Scorpius at every test, the nod between Draco and Harry, Ginny telling James to give love to Neville who is a professor. That would have bought closure as to what happen to Neville and not forgetting that Draco and Harry have reach an understanding.

Overall feel:

Overall, this movie is the phenomenal ending that fans are waiting for and it is fitting send-off after a decade.

For fans, we know where everything is going, yet at the same time, as this is an adaptation, we are in for surprises as well.

I love the rawness of the film, the emotive and heart-wrenching scenes. It is intensive and quite overwhelming for me, possibly because I am hyperventilating.

It is well balanced and viewers know for sure that this is no longer a children book but this is war and sacrifices have to be made for the greater good.

Of course, this movie tugs your heartstrings and manipulates your tear ducts.

This is one of the better films in this movie franchise. However, between this and Part 1, I still think the latter is much better performed and executed. 

Ever since Chamber of Secrets, I have all but lost hope that another Harry Potter film could follow the legacy of remaining faithful to the beloved book series. Yes, Part 2 is faithful to the book in some areas but falls short in others.

Is this my favourite movie? I'm not too sure. It's an alright sort of movie, sad to say. It is not quite up there on the pedestal with the first two movies and Deathly Hallows Part 1.

Although, David Yates, David Heyman, J.K Rowling with all the producers and crew behind this success ought to give themselves a pat on the back for a job well done. They have outdone themselves in this final instalment.
 
It is a brilliant and dazzling finale and an incredible conclusion. It has been an emotional rollercoaster, despite me having read and re-read the book. No matter what, I still get teary at the heart-wrenching scenes. 
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Words can’t describe how I felt; there is a mixture of pride, elation, agony and depression. The Harry Potter era is officially behind. It is history. 
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Yes, the fandom will never die as long as there are fans celebrating this legacy and keeping the flame burning. It just won’t be that special anymore, as there will no more countdowns, no more midnight shows, no more premieres, no more of those impromptu stuff. 
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There will never be something like this again, not in the near future. 
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Though the movies represent the tip of the iceberg, they bring words to life and give realism when the book cannot. Fans can finally go to Hogwarts and study there! Movies help us to visualise when we cannot. 
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As I flipped through those news articles of old, it evokes a sense of deep nostalgia in me. It wasn’t that long ago when they announced that the Wizarding World of Harry Potter will be built in Orlando! That is like a dream come true for fans. It wasn’t that long ago when there is still a long, long way to go.

A Decade of Magic

"No story lives unless someone wants to listen" - J.K. Rowling

The truth just hits home, this is really ending, isn’t it? All of it.

True, the books series may long have ended in 2007, but for us, the movies are always a sense of continuity. After all, there are still 3 films to go.

To quote producer, David Heyman “We always knew we were coming back, but this time, we know we won’t”. Don’t I feel depressed when I hear this statement?

It has been nearly a decade since I first experienced the glorious world of Harry Potter and magical London, and I never look back.

I remembered the countdowns, the pre-orders, the late-night readings, the premieres, the “celebrations” with fans all over the world, the cheers and tears I shed. Through the ups and downs of school life, one thing stays true and that is Harry Potter (the series). I always know I can count on the magical world to keep my spirits up.

There were some points during the 10 years where my love for Harry Potter seemed to have faded but it was never truly gone. I came down from a high at some points of life and it soared again as I grew older and the story grew darker. Harry Potter and friends were growing and so was I.

I remembered reading Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets for the first time in my life when I was 10, which was lent to me by a friend. Few months later, I supposed, I went on to watch Chamber of Secrets and that was the event that triggered my passion and from then on, I was hooked. I bought my first book, Prisoner of Azkaban and it was and still is my favourite. After that, well, I never missed each book release and movie opening day.

To think that the journey is ending tomorrow!

This is will the last hurrah for us fans, the last time where we can countdown, dress up, cheer and party as the lights dimmed and celebrate the legacy J.K.Rowling has gifted us.

There will be no more of these occasions once 14^th July pass. Even though, the magic stays on and shall thrill generations to come, there is no longer the “X” factor, that special moment to savour. With instant gratification in terms of books and movies, anyone can access them and thus, they are not deem as precious as they were to us.

We are the pioneers, the “Harry Potter generation” who grew up and attended Hogwarts with the protagonists. We are there for every step, from finding the perfect actors, to making the movies, to gasping in horror at plot holes. We are there as J.K.Rowling wrote her books, releasing them over the years, with her fans impatiently counting down the days for each book release. We were the ones who come up with all those speculations about how series will end.

To all those who have been there since the beginning of time, kudos and thank you for staying on. I feel like a first time parent who has been there, watching his child grows up, and now, he is an adult and ready for a brand new world.

If this is how I feel as a fan, I wonder how Rowling felt when she finally handed up her manuscript and saw her brainchild being released for the final time. Gods, the pride and agony...

Not Ready

Another week gone.

Why is Time passing so fast? I'm not ready to give up my freedom. I'm not ready to face stress and challenges again, particularly this long-drawn battle of 3-4 years. I'm not ready for University, period.

Deahtly Hallows Part 2 London Premiere

5th July Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2 premiere at Trafalgar Square, London was a grand and emotional affair.

Hardcore fans camped out in the rain for more than 3 days to catch a glimpse of their idols and witness the spectacular end of an era. How I wish I could be there amongst them!

There is the longest red carpet for the actors/actresses to walk on and this premiere got to be the biggest that London has ever seen. Indeed, the aerial shots of the place are magnificent.

Like what the stars had say, it was truly breath-taking and humbling to see the droves of fans who grow up with the movies and books and make this franchise so successful.

Watching part of the live coverage and later, the replay online, across the world is marvellous. I never will thank the invention of Internet until then. I can literally feel the excitement and elation of fans and I did get teary-eyed when Daniel Radcliffe, Emma Watson, Rupert Grint and J.K. Rowling made their thank-you speeches.

It's so bittersweet. Something like this phenomenal will never happen again, not in this lifetime and age. I don't want to make it sound so "end-of-the-world-ish" but the feelings evoked can almost never be felt again.

I reckon in the later part of life, you will grow desensitized and jaded that anything will just be a passing fad.

This premiere, which I have the good fortune to witness, will go down in history and etch itself in the minds of fans and maybe stars for many years to come. When we grow nostalgic, perhaps, we can look back and relive the moments.

It was certainly a fitting send-off to the greatest movie franchise of all time, the highest grossing series ever, and of course, to the actors/actresses who bought imagination to the big-screen and J.K. Rowling, where none of these will happen if not for her brillance and putting pen to paper.

Thank you.