In Memoriam

It came as a blow this evening, Mrs Lee Kuan Yew, the wife of Minister Mentor, had passed away.

It just further cement one of my greatest fear because as the days pass, I fear that Mr Lee will leave us one day. Now, I know a person can't jolly well live forever. But there is a part in me that I won't have to deal with it in recent years.

It will be a big day for Singapore should that day comes, because world leaders will surely come here and pay their respects and since Mr Lee is a renowned person around the world and have won the respect of many, this is a big issue indeed.

There will be at least a day of mourning and a national holiday will be declared.

By then, I hope to have read one of his biographies and interviews.

As a young Singaporean, not hitting twenty yet, it may seems a little weird for me to let my emotions run in such matters. I don't particularly care about politics but I do care about the welfare of the country. At the minimum, I do read and care in world issues.

I guess I can be considered a "fan" of Mr Lee as I think he really has aid Singapore a lot, together with other early political members. I shudder to think of how it will be for us should an alternate universe occurs. Would I still have free rein typing this tonight?

Comparing ourselves to other countries, we have so much to be thankful for. Yet, obviously, people will want more, searching for their perfect Eden.

Perhaps, when you become a head yourself, in your own country, then you can set up your own laws and regulations for your own people. Till then, be content and appreciative. Even better, you will realise governing a country is not as easy as you thought.

A good quote to use here is "My boat, my rules" from Sleep Talkin' Man.

For now, RIP Mrs Lee.

October Wish

My October wish is for October to go faster so that I can get away from this agony. Out of the 3 months, October will be the worst because it's limbo. By the time November comes around, it will high time to start a proper countdown.

I managed to survive another week in internship, so that makes it 2 weeks down. 9 more weeks to go.

During the internship, I’ve experienced a different kind of environment and now, I have an inkling of what kind of work and environment I’ll like to work under. The aspects of work life which I like and not preferred, this internship is more of the latter.

If there is something really deep I learn in this internship, it is that I want to keep my options wide open and really choose a good job to settle down. The last thing I want to do is to sell my soul to the devil.

I'll never do that because it is plain stupid. That is also why the plan of setting up my own business will not occur to me now. Perhaps for some, experiencing this motion makes them want to be their own boss. For me, it's something ugly and seriously, being your own boss equals no balanced work life.

Furthermore, since I will be graduating real soon, my immediate plans is to think about my options, go for a well-deserved holiday, think about it some more and go for further studies. That is my plan.

I really don't feel like working after experiencing it for 10 days. It's a chore, to drag yourself awake and drag your feet to work. You basically have no life because once you come home, it's dinner and some time for yourself before going to bed.

I was discussing about the ugly side of work with my fellow intern and I realised that I have no wish to travel that far for work, I thought gloomily to myself.
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You know what? After going through today's sharing session, I've found out I'm much blessed. The way things are going for me cannot be compared to what some classmates gone through. I would have curse and swear to the bank if I land one of their unfortunate jobs.

Calling out all day long? You've got to freaking kidding me! I will cry everyday if I have to do that.

Working in a travel agency and having to work through the weekends? Working in a hotel? Once again, no way in hell. See? This is way I did not choose tourism in the first place. I knew such horrors would happen. Choosing tourism as a major is so much different than working in the industry.

I should count my blessings then. At least, I am stuck with a 9 - 6 job, five days a week. At least my job scope is better than some which do repetitive work throughout their 11 weeks internship.

Still, of course, there are people who landed better jobs than me. I know that. But, it's somewhat sadistic to be "gleeful" knowing that there are others who are worse than you. I can't help this feeling.

Oh well, I supposed I'm a little more appreciative of my job now. To deal with incompetent and negligent supervisors are the worst lot.

This sharing session is good. It broadens up my perspective and allows me to view things in a clearer picture. Though, I have to say, that does not make me less likely to complain and rant about my worklife. I have to have an outlet to vent my anger.