F. My Life

This is crap. I don't ever want to write a cover letter in my life again or do a job hunt. I am trying so hard to be brave and yet I am failing terribly at it. It is either that I don't have the correct qualifications or experience to apply for the jobs I am interested in. Passion can only get one so far. Don't even get me started on going for an interview. I am scared stiff of quick fire questioning and meeting strangers in a formal setting. I am worried of getting tongue-tied and embarrassing myself. 

Perhaps my greatest weakness is not having the confidence or the ability to "fake it". I am just me. Average, boring me. If the circumstances are otherwise, perhaps I won't have such a hard time with "life issues". Sometimes I envy those who have their lives planned out. I am sure they have their fair share of insecurities and problems, but at least they are able to make it? At least they excelled at something? I guess I am still in the works. 

I will thank the gods when I pass an interview and get a job offer that can hopefully last me through the years. They were right. The adults were right. It is so much easy being a child, a student. At least I don't have to think about bills and responsibilities then.