Director's Honours List 2010

Ho Ho Ho! Finally! It's a dream come true for me!

Last year I was disappointed I didn't get into the Direct Honours List. Guess what?! I got in this time round!

Wow, I would say I can't believe it, but in truth, I can. I work hard for one whole year, semester 2.2 was extremely gruelling but I pulled through with all As and distinctions.

Yes, now my efforts paid off and instead of the more subtle results slip, I can have my parents attending the ceremony.

I've to say this is my and their first time attending such event. This is the moment of glory and pride for me. I am going to treasure it like no other. One more happy moment to add into the list.

In all my school life, I didn't get close to getting awards. Recognition for my yearly efforts is practically close to none. Sure, I was first in class once in secondary school and that was it. Nineteen years later, this came and I was ecstatic.

The Director's Honours List is awarded to students in the top 10 percent of the whole Diploma in Business cohort.

Now, the last year for me. I don't think this chance is going to come to my doorsteps again. It's just too difficult with the way things are going. With luck and help from divine powers, may it be that I can grace the doors again.

This is extremely helpful in giving me the boost I desperately needed in this godforsaken term. Hopefully, I can get back on my feet again and be the best that I can.

Memories

In my other life, I seem to have remembered these familiar faces. The faces of teachers who had taught me and whom I esteemed.

However, with the pass of time, my memories of them become fuzzy. I cling tightly to these memories because they are of the best in my schooling life. The upper secondary period is something I treasured most, now that O levels was a thing behind.

It's not that I don't like my school life now. It's just it is not up there on my list. There are some aspects which I like. I guess that when graduation comes, I will only look back with fond memories.

On another note, holidays, even short ones, are enough to make you forget about your other life. Other life being the life in school with dreadful projects.

Oh gods, I heard that people received their Direct Honours List already! I sincerely hope that on of these days, when the letterbox is opened, lo behold, the invitation will be waiting for me. Please, please, please...

GSS

Yesterday, my father and mother took the day off and we went shopping since it's the Great Singapore Sale season. My brothers went for a cycling session with my cousins.

First we went for lunch. After that, we went to CentrePoint's Robinsons to look for clothes. We didn't manage to get anything from there though. This is just typical of us. We left for OG across the road and my mother bought a blouse after a long time. I bought a shirt and 2 shorts.

We were quite tired by then and had ice-cream at Haagen-Dazs. I ordered strawberry ice-cream on a waffle while my parents ordered one ice-cream creation with 6 mini ice-cream.

We bought a pendant from Simont as a birthday gift. In the end, we saw another pendant that looks good and got it it. The design is very unique, a triangular-shaped piece, with swirling blue and black glass.

We made a trip up to Esprit. I managed to get a dark blue dress which cost quite a lot. I love Esprit designs but why does the clothes they sell cost so much?

My father and I went back to Robinsons to get me a new pillow and we had this $5 voucher for spending more than $50. My father actually wanted to throw it away since it only last till end of the month. I suggested spending it on something small and trivial. In the end, we got a mug. It originally cost $9.90, after discount and using the voucher, it was $2, which is worth it.

It's a great day! It's been ages since we did something like that.

World Cup Season

"The world stops turning when the World Cup is on"

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The World Cup season is here again! This time it is held in South Africa.
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I still remembered the good old times of past World Cups, my brother and I would childishly cheered our favourite teams and jeered the others at home. Sighs, I even wrote out a list of teams I like, determined by how I love the country.
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This year though, we would be only able to watch the opening, semi-final and final matches on free-to-air TV. For one, we are not huge enough fans to subscribe that highly debatable price the Telco charges.
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I, personally, can't wait for the World Cup 2010 despite not being a soccer fan in the first place. No, I don't chase after the English Premier League or other significant games. But, World Cup is a must-watch, isn't it?
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And isn't the World Cup's goal to bring together people, be them fans or not, to get them excited for their countries? In me, they have achieve that purpose, because I am excited and geared up for it.
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Productivity will go down, absentee rates will go up, sleepless nights are bound to be, cheers bound to be heard in the various pubs. You know it's World Cup season when these happen.

Shrugs

Despite my own misapprehension, I would like to think that I can work wonders too. I would like to give myself the benefit of doubt too.
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I should think everyone desires that. I may be sceptical of what they say, but deep inside, I would like to think that it will truly benefit me.
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I want to see results in the long term. The way some lecturers put it, the subject we are taught now will have great cause to our future. Don't be mistaken, I've no doubts that things will work out, if you truly put your heart into it. I guess I'm just worried that I can't work it out now.
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And whether it will be of use to us next time, let me just get pass this round first.
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I'm, of course, talking about Strategic Entrepreneurship.
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Blah, blah, blah, the lecturer goes. Nonetheless, I don't deny he has good intentions in mind. Perhaps I can't feel it now, but when I look back in the future, I would want to think of fond memories. Let's not make things worst the way they are. I want the memories to be of goodness.

A Peek into an Incoherent Mind

Questions, questions.

Have I been thinking too much so much so that I can't even form a coherent thought in my mind now?

What prompt me to think that going back to school on holidays is a good idea in the first place?For goodness sake, I don't even feel like leaving the bed.

There could only be one bad thing about holidays and that is this: holidays with responsibilities!

Holidays in mid-term is a very bad idea. The idea of having a holiday but having to work on your projects is a torture with the capital letter T. It's a tantalising thought complete with torture devices.

I welcome holidays with open arms but this is a little bit sadistic. You get holidays but have to use the time to work on so many different projects. Is it little wonder that my brain is mush?
Update: My Muse is back, it seems. I just hope it doesn't go away too soon this time.

Alright, there are lots of thoughts swirling around now. I'm not exactly the most eloquent person around. I think a lot, and when I don't put them on paper there and then, I lost them. It gets really frustrating.

It's a good thing I'm not an aspiring author because this is a bad habit to have.

You know what? I want a beta reader to proof-read my projects. Not necessary to correct but to see whether it works and flows properly and put in their 2 cents. Hmmm, if only I dwell within the fanfiction world, since the authors are always looking for a good beta. Too bad, it's just a thought.

Eclipse Posters

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Disclaimer: None of these posters belong to me.

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Now, let's see. I figured I would do a "New Moon" and put up an entry on posters (fan-made and official) for Eclipse the movie.

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The first on top of this list of Eclipse the movie posters is the official one used for the promotion.

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I've been wanting to say this for quite some time, but never have the chance of doing so until now. It's quite plain, in my opinion. Other than the colour tones used, I don't really like the poster. It says nothing of the plot of the story and they looked too photoshopped.

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The designers really need to step up on their work, as echoed by many other fans.

Showcase something dramatic, something pivotal in the plot. Asking the 3 main actors to pose like that did nothing to arouse any fancy.

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If I am someone who is not a fan, I wouldn't even bat an eyelid when I see the poster.

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The rest of the posters below are fan-made and they are my personal favourites after looking through the net for them.

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Of course, people are more agreeable and forgiving where fan-made stuff are concerned. Firstly, they are made by fellow fans who love the series enough to do that. Secondly, for all we know, they are not professionals and did them during their free time.

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Besides, these are the real good ones, even looking more professional than the official one. So, they still used photoshop, but at least these look more authentic and original.

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I'm so excited for the movie! It's my favourite book of the series and judging from the early review I read, it looks to be really awesome! Both in the romance and action parts. Wow, I hope David Slade really delivers.

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Movie Outing & Musings

Went for a movie with my friend who is back from the States on Friday.
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Too bad I had work or else we could have gone further places. But as it was, we just went to Causeway Point to catch Shrek Forever After in 3D at 11.50am.

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It is a fun film though I didn't catch the prequels in the theaters. The 3D effects are great!

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After the movie, we went for lunch at Crystal Jade before parting our ways because I had to go back.

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"Begin each day by telling yourself: Today, I shall be meeting with interference, ingraditude, insolence, disloyalty, ill-will and self-fishness - all of them due to the offenders' ignorance of what is good or evil"

It's almost too easy to forget that I still have a daunting task in front of me whenever the holidays roll in. It is too easy to put the thought of school aside when you don't have to be physically there. Like the the old adage; out of sight, out of mind.

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I don't have to pretend and put on a false front everyday. I don't have to grit my teeth to go with the flow. Most importantly, is what I don't want to put here. If you think I am happy in school, you have another one coming.

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No, I'm not. Not for once. Perhaps only on a few occasions. Say, when the projects end and when I get back my good results.

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In the holidays, I can actually be happy for once. More so now.

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I'm thinking of starting another more personal blog post in another place. Somewhere where I can actually write what I want to say.

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That's that.

One Enchanted Evening book review

Finally! Montgomery got his own book! And his own ”fairy”! Besides, the cover art of Sedgewick is to be died for.
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I love all of Lynn Kurland’s time-travel romance novels and on top of that, Montgomery is one of my favourite characters since I read about him as side character in other novels. Needless to say, I am extremely thrilled to find out that he is to have his own story.
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I finished the novel as soon as I can and something hits me. As much as I love the novel, I feel that something is lacking. I guess I was looking forward to Pippa and Montgomery staying in the Future.-
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I would have loved it more if more emphasis is placed on Montgomery’s trip to the Future. The modern wonders and gadgets through the eyes of a medieval character should prove to be very entertaining and soul-searching if the author focuses on that.

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It’s hard to have ultimate favourites when each and every novel is beautiful in its own way. My favourites are Another Chance to Dream, If I Had You, This Is All I Ask, To Kiss in the Shadows, Stardust of Yesterday. I figure that I like the ones best that have the 2 main characters stay in their Time.
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It too is getting confusing what with the number of characters appearing, visiting the Future and going back to the past. Phew.
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I can’t wait till next year for Lynn Kurland’s new book! It’s really awesome that she manages to stick to a schedule; that is to publish one novel per year. Isabelle and John’s stories are my most anticipated ones.

Deed is Done

The deed is done. My mind is blissfully blank now.

I can't think of anything of import. It's almost a poor choice to organise a meeting tonight. Sighs.

It's the end of the Mid-semester tests apparently. Let's just say we'll see when the results are out.

How Blue Are You?

"Let's talk Blue Ocean"

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Make your competitors irrelevant by finding that Blue Ocean. Alas, in exams, we can only fight in bloody red oceans, where sharks and barracudas circled.

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It's that time again, when Mid-semester tests hit. I have 2 mid-semester tests this time round, adding on to the 2 tests done last week.

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Managerial Accounting 1 test today was kind of alright, dare I say, easy. It was straightforward and I must get an A or else. But, I already knew I had 2 mistakes for MCQs. What can I say?

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Wednesday's paper will be Strategic Entrepreneurship. It will be challenging, to quote the teacher. Ahhh, I sure hope for the best. He gives vague tips and is generally an elusive person. Sighs.

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At least 4 As is my goal this term. I really have to keep up, if not improve my GPA. This term looks to be the toughest yet. I am so worried about the group projects. I am afraid of delivering less-than-stellar work.

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My Darlings

It's been some fine days since 27th May 2010. My friend is back in town for the summer and we met up after my classes on Thursday.
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We ate at NorthPoint and I finally received the long-awaited special edition New Moon DVD from Borders and Twilight Graphic Novel.

It feels great that I managed to get what I wanted from the States. I've yet to pay her back though. In total, it cost me S$70. Well, what can I say? It's worth it.
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On Friday, after my father returned home from his overseas trip, we left for Orchard Road.
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First, we went to a photograph exhibition outside Mandarin Gallery. It was titled "Biodiversity". Oh boy, the photographs taken are truly an inspiration for someone who likes to take photographs, like me, for instance. The winning entry is a masterpiece. It depicts a rare sight: an otter chasing after a crab in the waters off Sungei Buloh.
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There must be some activities going on at Orchard due to the sheer number of people thronging the streets. The start of the Great Singapore Sale and a public holiday must be contributing factors too.
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We managed to find a parking lot at Ngee Ann City and I went to collect my coveted book, One Enchanted Evening by Lynn Kurland.

I bought bedsheets at Takashimaya, however, I didn't really like the colours. I was further disappointed after I reached home and found out that only the pillowcase has the purple-striped pattern while the bedsheets is a off-white colour. I felt cheated. Thank goodness, I didn't bought the bolster-casing.
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It led to me thinking what's with the world of bedsheets designs nowadays. They are either in one colour tone which is too dull or in "loud" designs which is too bright. I can't find one that suit me.
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My taste reflects on my existing bedsheets which is my ultimate favourite. Not only is it soft and beautiful embroidered, it has flowers scattered here and there. It is sophisticated yet not too "old".
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We left Orchard with my aunt who is working there at around 8pm plus. Once I reached home, I immediately set to read One Enchanted Evening and read through the night till 1am. I finished the novel on Saturday afternoon. There will be a post on the review soon.

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Bittersweet End

"Dont cry because it's over, smile because it happened"

http://www.mugglenet.com/app/news/show/3505/page/1
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"The end is nigh, fellow fans... I don't really know what to say! I can't fathom a world without the phenomenon of Harry Potter, it has been a part of my life for so long! I am sad, excited, and joyful that Harry made it through in one piece and had the happy ending we all hoped he'd have.
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It's not like after the last film all this will just disapparate like a certain cheeky, wide eyed house elf - we will continue to love HP and more kids will be reading and loving it too! But, as many kids will read this series and see the films and listen to the music in the future - we are the first fans, we can proudly say we were there when Harry Potter was born and were loving every moment of it!

We were here through the desperate times, trying to piece together theories on what will happen next and waiting - oh the endless waiting! - for the next book or film.

I salute JK Rowling for everything she has done. She is such a brilliantly talented writer and role model! I hope to be an author/illustrator someday and she has certainly inspired me that anything is possible, you never know how something will go until you try!" (Ginny_and_Crookshanks_PotterObsessed)

"Howdy Pards, As we wipe tears away we must admit that we knew this moment would someday come.

These characters that have become so much a part of all our lives will live forever in the books, up there on the silver screen, and in our hearts. The actors who played a part in Harry Potter will truly become immortal now... they are a part of a classic series of stories that will live for all time.

In the crystal ball, I see a future of star reunions...of books...of conventions about Harry Potter that will last until the last star has left us. The celebrations will continue... Somehow there is a real magic in all this beginning, of course, with the imagination of J.K. Rowling... the skills of the filmmakers... all those wonderful folks behind the scenes who played a part... and all those actors who brought the wonderful characters in Harry's world to life.

Along with the feelings of sadness, let there be feelings of thanks to all who gave the world the wonderful gift that is Harry Potter. We will grow old...but the magic will remain forever fresh and new to generation after generation...make no mistake Harry Potter is classic storytelling at its very best...and classics live for all time. Adios for now." (wildolddan)

"In these last moments of Harry Potter, I have to express my most joyful love for this series among other things.

From the first time I heard the first book in 2nd grade, I never understood how much of an impact it had on me until I finally see it coming to an end. Although the spectacle has lasted for my whole life, I will still cherish the lessons and experiences these books and movies and theme park have taught me even after it is done.

Imagination can crowd the mind, but it never hurts the mind. And J.K. Rowling only emphasizes my dear love for imagination, even though imagination can't seem to crowd mine. Thank you so much Rowling, filmmakers, for helping realize the love that this series portrayed and displayed without prejudice." (Greenspade)

These are some of the best tributes I have read so far and they literally took the words from my mouth. I have to admit I'm not very good at using words to express my feelings even though I love my words.

So, instead of me typing all these out, I've decided to play cheat and take some of what I considered good tributes from fellow fans and post them. Credit are given as due.

Of course, the end is not that near. But given the way filming are being done, the epilogue filming this week, we can say that things are coming to a standstill soon.

There is still post-production and not to mention, until mid-2011 before the last part of Deathly Hallows is shown on the silver screen.

I feel so proud to be here, sharing every moment with the rest of the fans as we dissect the paragraphs, speculate on the endings, shiver with anticipation over the release of each film and book.

And when the time comes when all this end, that's where the tributes and bittersweet tears will come pouring. And it's then I'll start on my personal tribute to the wondrous J. K. Rowling and the film crew for bringing life to imagination and imagination to life.

Until then.

Fun Saturday

22nd of May was fun.


The family went out again. This time to Suntec City as my brothers wanted to buy toys. Despite apprehension about the upcoming Event Management test on an early Monday morning, I still enjoyed myself.


We ate at Crystal Jade Restaurant and while my brothers went to Toys R Us, we went to G2000. It is near the period for the Great Singapore Sales and everywhere are offering discounted items.


I bought an office blouse since one of mine was torn.


We then went to Lee Hwa Jewellery as my mother wanted to buy a pendant for my Aunt's birthday. She ended up buying a purple gold pendant herself. It was on a special rate and she bought it.

Wow! It is something I wanted since purple gold is made possible. Next time, next time.

We were eligible for the membership and I signed it under my name. I have 2 membership cards now. One from TianPo Jewellery and the other is Lee Hwa.

After which, we walked over to Marina Square to drink at Coffee Club. I ordered the usual, Strawberry Passion Tea Freeze. I am going to try the various dairy-free smoothies next time round.
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Peaches & Lemons

Life is just peachy, isn't it?

I've endured for years, now that there's only months to go, why is it that I suddenly feel that things are hard to get along?

Graduation Day 2010 is in my school and this brought out a torrent of emotions in me. For one, I can't wait to graduate and put the full-stop in this chapter of my life. It has gone on for long enough and it's time to let go.

I won't go so far to say that I won't miss the times I have in Poly. Sure, there are moments I treasured and loved. But, unfortunately, that is far and between.

I want to wear the graduation robes and get my diploma. I want that experience and memory.

You know, for someone who grab hold on the past and the mundane so tightly, it is funny how I can let things go just as quickly. I like the predictable, the simplicity. I hate changes. But, oh, what wouldn't I give to experience something so wondrous and strange and unique!

It has always been my dream to study overseas, be it sooner or later. I want to travel, to see what I've seen on clips and articles.

Yes, I have good days and bad days. Everything else just falls in between. There are days when I feel as if life is just plain meaningless. Why do we work so hard for? Is it for glory? Is it to fulfil your materialistic gains? Because, ultimately, everything will end. Whether you are high up in the corporate ladder or just another man on the streets, everything will come to an end.

However, it boils down to one thing. Do you want to be the loser or the winner or at least be able to answer to yourself?

Despite sounding so depressing, I wouldn't worry for myself. Let's just say writing all these is a way to release my stress. Besides, there are things I've yet to do. Places yet to be travel. Movies yet to be watched. Books yet to be read. Entertainment yet to be seen. Goals yet to be fulfilled.

I may be a greater fool but I've not lose my mind.

Let us rewind back to school stuff. Semester 3.1 only has a word to describe it. Bad. Real bad. I can't wait for it to end and Semester 3.2 to come and go. Then, I'll be out in the lonely and cruel world. Just peachy, as I said.

Semester 3.1 is bad in so many ways. The lecturers, the subjects, the projects, the feel of things. Everything is just "off". Or is it me who is "off"? Perhaps I'm working on a different wavelength
from others.

Ha, I have yet to even see and experience a quarter of the real world but it seems I can be really insightful when I want to.

I've still a long, long way to go but I'm weary.

Anyway, as they put it, "when Life gives you lemons, throw them back and demand chocolates."

At Wits End

I'm really at my wits end over the project of Product Development and Innovation.

The teacher did bring up a good point. He said that the Singapore system and the world's in general follows a hierarchy and we are brought up with model answers. So, to thrust us into a world of innovation proves to be daunting for us.

At first glance, the project seems harmless enough, even fun. However, when you look deeper, you would realise that you are in really deep trouble if you are the kind of person with a lack of creativity. Like me.

Yes, I can come up with some pretty good innovations if I am NOT under pressure. Like they say, inspiration hits when you least expect it.

But now, I am on a tight schedule to get things done. Originally, my plans was to develop on the cellphone, to make physical aspects better. Lo and behold! Technology moves faster than my brain and those ideas I thought of already sort of exist in the market.

Furthermore, a classmate whose presentation is earlier than mine was doing on cellphone too. And her ideas almost clashed with mine. To make things work, I have to give up on my plans. Anyway, it wasn't that great in the beginning.

I sought out help from my friends and family members. While some of them gave wacky but great ideas, others seem to be like me, with no ideas flowing.

Now, I want to do on laptops. I don't know why the products I choose to do on are all electronics and high-tech gadgets. The first round of presentations saw development on tables, bottles, and even bamboo holder! All simple, everyday products!

Therefore, I don't know what's wrong with me. As they presented, my mind went "Why didn't I think of that?" Oh gods.

It's like I can never beat that status-quo or think out-of-the-box. Perhaps, in a different surrounding, my creative juices will start to flow and I can get better. For now, I am stuck as a penguin.

The project is really getting on my nerves, along with everything else.

Tests are coming my way. Projects will have to be passed up soon. Only a couple of good things to look forward to. To read One Enchanted Evening and my friend's coming to town.

Fieldtrip & Shopping

On Saturday, 15th of May, the group went to the Singapore Philatelic Museum and Lau Pa Sat for our field trip. This was for the purpose of our Special Interest Tourism Project.

Overall, it was quite fun as this was my first time going to the Singapore Philatelic Museum. It was truly an eye-opener for me.

We then ate at Wendy's for lunch at Lau Pa Sat.

In the evening, the family except my mother went to Orchard Central and CentrePoint. It was sort of to celebrate my belated birthday again. Besides, I wanted to get clothes from Esprit as it's my birthday month and I get 20% off as a member.

We ate at this Ramen place which does not sell udon. And I saw this store called Jewels which sells beautiful chocolate pieces for an extraordinary price. They are almost art pieces! It's really cool though.

After which, we went over to CentrePoint where Robinsons is having sales. I wanted to bedsheets because I have only 1 at home. However, I didn't manage to get one due to I didn't know what is the size of my bed. Also, no design caught my eye. Oh well.

I went down to Esprit with my father. I did get 2 pieces of clothes. Why, oh why is Esprit so expensive in Singapore? I swear if I go to USA I will bring back lots of clothes.

We had ice-cream at Haagen Dazs.

Celebrating 19 Years

On 8th of May, Saturday, the family and I went to The Cafe Cartel at Marina Square. It was alright, I suppose. Nothing too special about it. I still prefer Swensens.

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Originally, I wanted to shop and had ice-cream or something, but because it's the exam season for my brothers, we had to get home for them to revise their work.

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See? For 10 years I have suffered on 10th May since my birthday always falls on exam season. To view it in another way, it means I can have extra good luck eh?

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Anyway, I hope that this week, my parents will be in a good enough mood for us to go out for ice-cream. I really want to go shopping at Esprit as I get to enjoy 20% off right now. It's a chance to get clothes at a discounted price.

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It's Mothers' Day on the 9th of May and since we celebrated it last week, this week we were supposed to bring 2 dishes from each family.

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My Aunt cooked chili crayfish, cockles and scallops. We bought black-pepper ribs and chicken. My other Aunt bought sushi. And not forgetting, a cake to celebrate my birthday and Mothers' Day.

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It was a divine chocolate cake! It's really smooth! I wanted to go for Awfully Chocolate but seeing that it requires ordering at least 3 days in advance and I'm lazy to do so, I'll have to pass. My Aunt bought this cake from Choc-A-Bloc which was just as lovely. It's completely a chocolate inside and out.
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At least things picked up on Sunday.
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So, I'm officially 19 now. Not much change is there? Age is nothing but a number. It doesn't mean everything changes when you turn one year older. Perhaps, though, you start to feel weary and wish for something extraordinary in your life.
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PS: a shout-out to those who wished me happy birthday! I truly appreciate it!
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C'est le Dix Mai

Bon Anniversaire à Moi!

Célébration de dix-neuf ans.
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Hooray! Things did pick up afterall! I'm quite the happy girl!
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I shall do a post on celebrating Mother's Day and my Birthday when I'm less busy.
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Le meilleur reste à venir (The best is yet to come)
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Cheers!
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18 going on 19

"The problem with a rat race is that even if you win the race, ultimately, you're still a rat"

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How true is that? I just love that quote. It's said by someone, I can't find the name, and is found inside the Strategic Entrepreneurship book.

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But, I rather be a winning rat than a loser who is a rat.

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Huh? 18 going on 19 and already wary (weary) of the world. With 2 days left to go, I can't help but feel squeamish.

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Don't everyone? As one gets older, uncertainty and insecurities set in. One realised that the world still turns even if you are left behind.

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Is 19 too young a age to notice these things and worry? I've always been the worrier and dreamer. I have lofty goals and dreams but with a side of practicability.

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I can't seem to get myself happy these days. Perhaps everything will change for the better when SIP ends. Then, I can get ready for the final leg and work on making my trip a reality.

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Honestly.

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Ahh well, got to get my act together. Didn't I come this far?

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